Despra Levin One..

Seharian gw di Rumah.. dan tau ngga dari Jam 12 siang sampe mau Buka gw ngga keluar-keluar kamar.. Gw maen Fish tycoon aja di Kamar sambil nontonin berita TV.. yang cukup bikin gw kesel pas nonton berita.. sekelompok yang menamakan diri mereka FPI ( Front Pembela Islam) dengan main hakim sendiri ngancurin warung-warung/ Restauran-restaurant di daerah Jawa Tengah ( kalo ngga salah), FPI tidak memperbolehkan warung-warung itu buka selama bulan puasa..apa masalahnya ya?? .. Tindakan mereka terlalu berlebihan menurut gw.. Kan kasian sama yang punya warung ngga bersalah gitu.. emang salah apa mereka buka warung mereka? apa kelompok yg menamakan diri sebagai FPI itu ngga sadar kita tinggal di Negara Hukum..bukan di Negara Islam.. Dimana warganegara Indonesia bukan cuma tinggal orang-orang beragama Islam aja.. kita semua tau Indonesia mengijinkan 5 agama untuk bisa diyakini warganegara Indonesianya kan?!

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Siapa yang tahu kalo warung-warung itu jadi mata pencaharian buat makan sehari-hari mereka?? kalo udah diancurin gitu sama aja ngancurin hidup yang punya warung , ya kan?! Kalo alasan FPI ngancurin warung-warung itu karena mengganggu ibadah puasa orang Muslim .. kenapa ngga sekalian FPI nge-demo semua stasiun TV yang banyak ngiklanin produk-produk makanan atau minuman di siang hari yg cukup menggoda itu??! basically, itu kan tergantung individunya aja.. kalo iman nya kuat-kuat aja sih ngga bakalan kegoda sama yang gituan. tul ngga?

Tindakan FPI itu malah mempermalukan / menjelekkan nama orang Muslim di depan agama lain.. yang gw tau Islam ngga mengajarkan tentang kekerasan kayak gitu..

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Si Pacar ngambek-ngambek mulu nih...fiuh..

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Gw baca di blog nya Tessa..gw jadi inget masa-masa SMP lagi deh.. Inget latian Cheerleaders bareng Anak-anak sama Kak Vina sang pelatih yang keren banget kalo udah bikin koreografi. Dan yang paling membanggakan Team Cheerleaders kita yang dikenal dengan nama Despra Levin One itu ngga pernah kalah setiap ngikutin kejuaraan-kejuaraan .. pokonya paling banter Juara 2 lah.. itu juga jarang..hehe

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Oh iya, waktu jaman-jaman cheers dulu gw pernah kebagian bikin menara yang waktu itu gw diangkat dalam posisi Kaki melebar ke kanan dan ke kiri a.k.a Split.. udah diangkat gitu.. paha gw dinaekin sama Deftine yang jadi maskot cheers kita sambil teriak "Despra levin One....cheeeerrsss" .. hmm.. kangen banget sama masa-masa kayak gitu..

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Waktu SMP dulu gw juga pernah ikutan Fashion Show sama si Tessa,, hehe.. seru ya Tes,.. waktu itu kalo ngga salah tempatnya di Mall Lembuswana..dalarangka apaan ya? gw lupa.. itu pengalaman pertama gw ikutan Fashion Show waktu itu.. deg-degan banget,maluuu.. banget.. tapi it was fun and nice experience though.

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Belum lagi waktu jaman SMP gw punya Genk-genk an gitu deh.. namanya Crepuscole.. huahahaha.. still remember,Tes?? anggotanya banyak banget.. ada Novy, Nadym a, Fitri, Rara, Uline, Tessa, Ferna, dll.. pokonya Seru deh dulu!

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I miss those moments very much..

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Coba ada Doraemon ..ge mau pinjem Pintu kemana saja.dan gw mau pergi ke Jaman gw SMP dulu.. pasti seru ya..

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Besok udah kuliah lagi.. banyak tugas nih.. duh,, pusing!

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bye..

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I'm signing out.

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cup cup

Sahur..sahur...!

Gw ngga sahur kemaren.. pagi-paginya gw tanya ke pembantu gw.
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Gw : "Mbak, Tasa ngga sahur hari ini .. kok ngga ada yang bangunin sih?"

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Mbak gw : "Ngga dibangunin gimana.. semua orang udah teriak bangunin kamu, tapi kamu ngga bangun-bangun!"

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Jujur ya. gw ngga ngerasa dibangunin . gw ngga denger apa-apa. seinget gw emang ada yang manggil-manggil nama gw dan rasa-rasanya itu cuma mimpi. ;p

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Jam 4.30 gw bangun ( dimana imsak sudah 2 menit lewat), itupun karena ada telfon dari Marini yang udah nelfon 5 kali. Gw langsung lari ke arah ruang makan dan minum satu gelas air putih dan niat puasa.

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Tante gw pagi-paginya menyarankan gw buat pasang weker. Dan FYI, gw tuh udah pasang alarm di Handphone gw ..dan cara menset alarmnya gw set tiap 15 menit sekali. contohnya gw mau bangun jam 9 pagi, nah gw mensetnya tuh jam 8.00, 8.15, 8.30.. tapi tetep aj... eh yang bangun malah si Noni ( yang mana jarak kamar gw sama Noni bisa terbilang cukup jauh).. hampir tiap pagi kalo lagi ngga Puasa si Noni ngomel2 "Buset dah sa.. Alarm lo kenceng banget sih.. nyampe ke kamar gw tau!! gw kuliah masih lama ni " . Dan lagi lagi I can't hear that.

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Segitu kebonya kah Gw??!!

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Hari ini gw 1 tahun 9 bulan lho.. ngga kerasa ya udah segini aja.. walaupun keadaan kita lagi ngga sebaik biasanya. at least gw seneeneeng banget masih sama dia dalam keadaan apapun.

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Yang jelas Bulan Puasa cobaannya emang berat. Semoga gw bisa ngelewatin dengan baik. amien.

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Aku sayang kamu, : )

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You're the one who jealous with our relationship.

just goddam admit it, smarty pants!

You want to have a life similar to ours, don't you?

I pity you.

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Akhirnya si Tessa udah bikin di blogger.. Welcome to Blogger, babe! gw bakal sering-sering visit blog lo deh Tes..

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Gotta rush. I have 11 am class today.

Tata : )

"Maling teriak Maling"

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it is the same with

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" Stalker teriak Stalker"

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And they both applied in this case. I dun get why they looked VERY happy when I've been fooled lately.. When ACTUALLY They're just embarrassing themself... I don't mind to give them a Mirror .. : )

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'' The Hypocritical Evil and her poor 'sentry' "

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Duh.. gw masih belum selesai nonton The O.C, masih penasaran sama cerita nya.. gw baru nonton sampe season 2.. *norak ya gw..ndeso *.. dengan alasan gw males beli Dvd nya.. gw berfikiran lebih baik meminjam daripada membeli kalo temen kita ada yang punya, ya ngga?kan lumayan ngirit beberapa rupiah,hehe *ini yang Padang gw apa Fikri ya??!* dan gw udah beberapa kali meminta *agak sedikit memaksa* ke temen gw si Tammy, tapi season 3 sama 4 punya dia lagi di pinjem.. duh,, ko nontonnya lama banget ya tuh yang minjem .. udah hampir 2 minggu gini.. Kepengen liat Seth Cohen sama Summer nya.."Tam, tagih terus ya tam temen lo itu..hehe".

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Gw ngga sabar nih buat Kuliah hari Jumat.. Hari jumat jadi hari Favorit gw dalam perkuliahan semester ini.. soalnya semua Dosenfavorit gw ngajar pada hari ini. Dosen 'Tehnik Pembuatan Kontrak' gw ..Bapak Teguh Samudera yang amat sangat menyenangkan dalam mengajarnya.. bikin belajar jadi menyenangkan... ngga pernah serius-serius banget ,, tapi ngga pernah santai-santai banget. Balance lah.. pokonya ni Dosen Low profile banget walaupun udah rahasia umum kalo dia jadi salah satu Lawyer sukses di Indonesia..noo.. dia bukan saudaranya Imam Samudera..hehehe.. tiap Kuliahnya pak Teguh gw sama Nita udah mulai ngegosip deh..mulai Peratiin dari ujung kepala sampe ujung kakinya Pak Teguh..hari ini si Bapak pake merk apa ya?? FYI, Dosen ini dosen yang paling trendy and branded deh kalo make barang.. Mulai dari kemeja,dasi, celana, kacamata,sampe sepatunya kalo di total-total bisa sampe kisaran puluhan juta tuh..ckckc..dahsyat ni bapak ..*ngga ada kerjaan ya gw pake ngitung2in segala..yah.. intermezzo..*

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Trus ada lagi Dosen 'Hukum Lembaga Pembiayaan' gw yang asli Batak.. kalo ngomong udah kayak yang paling Batak sendiri aja.. hehe walaupun mempunyai nama asli Ahmad Mulyadi.. ngga nyambung kan? orang Batak atau orang Jawa nih?? Tapi si Bapak selalu bersikeras kalo beliau orang Batak.. hmm.. lo udah nonton Nagabonar jadi 2 kan? nah.. persis banget deh cara ngomongnya sama si Nagabonar. Pak mul biasa gw manggilnya juga enak banget ngajarinnya.. yang kadang-kadang emang suka agak aneh gitu.. si Bapak suka cerita yang menurut kita-kita ngga lucu tapi Si Bapak menganggap ceritanya sangat lucu..jadi malah dia yang ketawa..yang mau ngga mau kita sekelas harus ketawa juga ,hehe.. Pokonya gw cinta dah sama dua orang Dosen ini.

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"LISTEN- Beyonce "

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Listen to the song here in my heart

a melody I start but can't complete

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Listen to the sound from deep within

Its only beginning to fing release

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Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard

They will not be pushed aside and turned

Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

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[chorus]

Listen

I am alone at a crossroads

I'm not at home in my own home

And I've tried and tried

To say whats on my mind

You should have known

Now I'm done believing you

You don'tknow what I'm feeling

I'm more than what

You've made of me

I followed the voice, you gave to me

But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened

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There was someone here inside

Someone I thought had died

So long ago

And I'm screaming out

And my dreams will be heard

They will not be pushed aside or turned

Into your own,all 'cause you won't listen

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I don't know where I belong

But I'll be moving on

If you don't, if you won't

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* I'm loving it*

I'm the one who should laughing! hehe

Remember I told you that I've been fooled by joining some quiz in someone's blog. Which was They asked me to put three names. I just have ONE in mind and TWO names in order to completing the spaces. Here are they..


1. Akmal Fikri. (some of you know him as my boyfriend)

<<< The one that I love : )

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2. Ryan Nirwan.






<<<> My 5-years-old cousin




3. Idep







<<3-years-old>

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Maybe YOU're right.. I Have special feelings to these 'boys'.. hahaha..*lauging-to-the-floor* yeah.. because I am not being hypocrite when I have special feeling for someone then I'm gonna admit that! I'm happy .. I'm not like yours ..when get caught had special feelings towards my man by seeing the poems, and all YOU dedicated to my man *not ur cousin anymore~like my bf said* and YOU're the one who didn't admit that. Because YOU don't want to look like a pathetic sore looser. ya kan?

So.. Who's actually being fooled?? ; D







P/s : for Fikri, " Sorry Ayang because I have crushes with the 'Boys' above..but I think u can find them in my home this Saturday.. u can punch or kick them if u want because They've took my heart. "uahahahaha...Don't get mad because I love them too . : )

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Btw, Fikri has his own blog too.. it's private place ONLY for US. ;P

Think Big ! It's all possible...

Kemaren Buka Puasa bersama Keluarga gw di rumah. Hampir semuanya dateng tapi Bang Ijal sama Kak Lenny ngga bisa dateng karena ada urusan mendadak. Dan gw kebagian bikin Puding coklat. and lucky me, Puding coklat gw habis tak tersisa..padahal gw bikinnya juga rada-rada pasrah.. gw ngga tau deh apa kemanisan atau malah kurang manis..kan gw lagi puasa.. hehe.

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Tadinya temen-temen gw pada mau buka bareng di Rumah tapi karena udah ada acara Buka bareng keluarga gw akhirnya di undur minggu depan.. Oh iya, Cobel juga ngundang gw ke acara ulang taunnya gitu..semacam syukuran sekalian buka bareng, tapi Sorry bel.. gw ngga bisa dateng.. I'd say Happy belated birthday ya..

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Gw makan banyak banget.. Spaghetti nya Tante Ade.. hmm... Enaaaaaaaakkkkkkkk banget! di keluarga gw Tante Ade yang cantik dan baik hati ini emang Specialist Italian Food,, pokonya kalo udah bikin Spaghetti, Fettucini, Lasagna.. Numero Uno deh rasanya.. yah.. Secara Tante Ade gedenya di luar jadi ngga heran juga kenapa jago banget masaknya.

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Unconsciously I came into someone's blog.. I tried the quiz.. and yeah, I've been fooled! I know the reason Why did he put that Quiz.. I thought he only wanna know what's name his love interest would type. and hopefully he'd be one of the names.. hehe.. ya kan? good effort juga..

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Honestly, I know someone who's the one for me.. Akmal Fikri lah.. hehe : D . been thinking to fool Fikri.. : p .. tapi ngga mungkin lah.. because he reads my blog. *hiks hiks*

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You deserve to have the life you want. So, what are you waiting for?

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STEP 1 :

• Set your sights

What to do : Pick a goal, like one day running your own business or finding the cure for cancer, and keep on focus on it.

Why : Because the top reason people don't reach their goals is that they get sidetracked. You need to answer the questions I suggested below. They'll make you keep motivated and on track.

1. What is the one thing you want to achieve more than anything else?
2. What pictures and quotes will inspire you the most to reach that goal?
3. Now take those quotes and images and glue them to a posterboard. then hang it on your wall, so you'll see it everyday.

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Bottom line : If you're constantly thinking about what you want to achieve and how to get there, working hard toward your goal will become part of your daily routine. and you'll continue to stick it!

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STEP 2

• Go for your goal

What to do : Take a small risks each day, so you learn how to bounce back from a mistake and how good it feels to stick with something and succeed.

Why : Many people give up their goals after they have setback. But you can learn how to recover it by practicing the risks below. isn't weird? no.. but Yes, you might mess up or even feel embarrased, but when you eventually get it right, u'll realize obstacles don't have to become roadblocks.

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1. Raise your hand in class at least once a day. even if you're unsure of the answer.
2. Ask a question whenever you're confused. and Face the fear of looking stupid!
3. Volunteer to lead a club after class. it'll let you making a big decisions.

Bottom line : as long as you keep voicing your opinions, (even if you are harsh in words or theres someone look unhappy with ur opinions , u need to trust ur belief and of course accept the constuructive criticsm from others.. and try to explain it as well to them. ), asking for help, and taking on responsibilities, you'll continue to gain the know-how and confidence to get by obstacles, AND make any dream a reality.

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so.. have a nice life, people!

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this is dedicated for my lil sister, Shifa. who always ask me how to achieve her goal and always thinks that her dream is only a dream and couldn't be a reality. Try it !

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Honestly, I have not achieve my goal yet. but I'll always focus on it !

Happy Fasting

The photoshoot went Ok. They said that I did a great job yesterday *thanks thanks*.. I was a bit nervous at first. because it's not like as usual. but I was happy with my performance though. and oh.. the pics were taken by Deniek G Sukarya. He's one of the Indonesian senior Photographer. *proud*.. just google him ; )

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When I was attending Ridi's wedding, I met some old friends from highschool. first fella was Ipen and his new gf. He looks fat than a years ago. then I met Cibe who told me that I am skinnier and look more young and *blush* prettier. Hehehe.. *thank u*. And other friends like Gobel, Tiwi, Ata, Andi, and Putri.

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and yeah, finally I chosed to wear my white Kebaya ..not the purple or black ones. : )

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Hey.. Ramadhan is coming. Happy fasting, people! sorry for the mistakes I've done to you. I hope this holy month bring us to the holiness. May Allah SWT blesses us .. amien.

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Btw, temen-temen gw udah merencanakan sejuta acara buat Ramadhan kali ini. Mulai Buka Puasa bersama, SOR (Sahur On the Road), dan bikin talkshow2 gitu. ckckck.. liat nanti apakah dapat terlaksana atau tidak. Tapi yang pentingkan udah ada niat. hehe

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Tommorow :

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• Got 10.50 am class.. "Hukum pengangkutan"..
• Meet Marini in the library at 12.00 pm.
• Finishing the book Kak Ala lent me "Don't be sad" (Cara Hidup Positif Tanpa Pernah Sedih & Frustasi) by DR. 'Aid bin Abdullah al-Qarni,MA.
• Host Reality Show audition at 3 pm.
• Meet Fikri and go watch at noon.

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This is for some people

If you judge people, then you have no time to love them.

gotta sleep. tata ; P

I've been so tired past few days. I know there is someone or third party who wants ruin my happiness. I know there is someone who stands behind all of this.

Who the hell are YOU?

and for you Asshole, If you dont understand what I mean.. just LEARN How to understand it. Occay! and drill into ur gf's brain that I'm not a lunatic person like her. I hv No plan to be like her . NOT EVER. and I DO NOT EVEN KNOW YOU. just take care your own life.

and for YOU, I know I was wrong that I thought u were the one who sending me those nasty messages in my tagboard, but that doesnt mean YOU could accusing me of things.

pantes aja Fikri ga mau anggep lo jadi sepupu lo. lo kasar gitu jadi cewe. yukss...

bye bye..

I'm gonna take it away

My cousin, Ridi. Get married tomorrow.. oh God.. Time flew so fast. He's my good cousin,even sometimes He makes me feel annoyed with his not-so-funny-jokes. hehe. I hope u'll be a good husband for Karin, and Allah SAW always protects you from bad things, Selamat menempuh hidup baru brotha! I always pray for you.

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I still haven't make a choice between wearing the purple Kebaya or the black ones for tomorrow. Which one ya? hmm.. bingung.

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The same girl 'invites' me into HER fighting.. She left a rude message in my tagboard. at first I stared her words. I kept quiet. I didn't do anything to her. What did I do towards her? . secondly I wanted to left some message in her tagboard.

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but I heard something from my heart. " No Tasya.. don't do that, don't ruin your precious time again, u've had enough of her. u didn't something wrong to her. she's really insane. "

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then I followed not to reply her silly message.

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Suddenly, My eyes went blurry.. the voice came again " no Tasya.. why are u crying? dun cry for someone who's not that important in your life or maybe not important at all, you have better things to attend to. just forget about her."

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I stand up. closer to the mirror. I saw my own face..

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then I smiled.

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I laughed.

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I smiled again.

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If you still won't forgive me

If you still being rude to me

If you still being arrogant to me

that's YOUR problem.

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Don't envy me. because I have everything you wanted. I have everything you need.

You cannot be me. I don't wanna be you .

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She's checking on me still. She find out everything about me. I know. She wants to be me.

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dedicated to : you-know-who-you-are

"I don't know what happened to you. why did you scolded me and called me a bitch? Am I hurting you? Did I do something bad to yourself? oh please.. BE MATURE! "

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you are so unpredictable. and it's so ridiculous.

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I watched The Invasion.. that's good.. I love t0 see Nicole Kidman's acting in this movie. and oh.. I've been watching Turistas.. that's totally worst movie I've ever seen. : (

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Yesterday, me, Fikri, Gena, Rifky, Dida, Marini, Rizal, and Shinji went to Dufan.. we started playing at 12 pm, and over at 6 pm.. We were playing Kicir-kicir (Only Fikri, Me, Gena, and Marini, else .. freaked out), Istana boneka, Tornado ( it sooo damn 'funny'.. yeah.. u read that right.. 'F.u.n.n.y').., Niagara, Rumah miring, Halilintar, Ontang-anting, and the last Arung jeram.

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Abis dari Dufan kita ber-7 ( kurang Marini and Rizal balik duluan karena ada keperluan mendadak) had dinner at Le Bridge Ancol.. pinggir pantai gitu. Romantis sekaliii... hehe.. trus ngobrol-ngobrol dan melacur (melakukan curhat-red) ngopi2, dll.. akhirnya kita semua sepakat buat melakukan suatu rencana perjalanan liburan kembali after puasa, kita berencana ke Pulau Seribu .. sekarang lagi pada tahap pengumpulan uang dan pencarian Informasi. And I elected to be the leader of the trip. Mereka minta gw buat cari harga Cottage se-murah-murah mungkin dengan akses yang se-hemat-hemat mungkin juga ( maklum, kantong Mahasiswa) hehe.. mungkin member liburan kali ini akan lebih meningkat.. mungkin ditambah sama Zie and Ginting.. Anyone wanna join us? just call me.. u got my number,right?

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hmm.. I like to read Rendy WTP's blog.. he's my bestrfriend since when I was in highschool.. each time he calls me .. He never forget to say this sentence to me " Tasya, find me some girl to be my angel, please?" hehe.. (sorry pe, gw berlebihan).. ya abis.. ni orang setiap nelfon gw ngga pernah ketinggalan buat minta dicariin pacar sama gw as if gw tuh kayak Mami-mami yang tukang nyomblangin orang.. mungkin bukan si WTP ini aja yang sering minta cariin pasangan sama gw.. tapi ada juga si Shinji yang minta dicariin cowo mulu sama gw.. apa dimata mereka gw tampak seperti Mami-mami yang banyak menyetok laki2 tampan atau wanita-wanita cantik nan ayu? AM I? .. hehe.. tapi ngga papa sih.. Basically, I'm more happy to see my friends look happy.. gw seneng bisa buat mereka seneng juga. Pernah terlintas dalam pikiran gw apa ni anak dua ( Shinji dan WTP-red) gw jodohin aja kali ya?.. ('' Pe, lo pasti ngangguk-ngangguk kegirangan deh..") kayaknya mereka cocok deh.. Si WTP typical cowo yang kurang pede kalo ngedeketin cewe * I guess* .. gw udah berkali-kali bilang ke dia kalo mau deketin cewe tuh harus menerapkan prinsip layang-layang.. tarik ulur-tarik ulur.. jangan jadi cowo terlalu agresif atau malah terlalu lama majunya yang kedua-duanya bisa menyebabkan kebosanan tingkat tinggi pada cewenya.. step by step aja dulu..nah si Shinji tuh cewe yang ngga macem-macem.. dia menerima cowo ada apanya..eh salah.. maksud gw apa adanya.. dia cuma butuh cowo yang bener-bener ngertiin dia.. itu aja.. gampangkan..

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Sekarang kalo gw pikir satu-satunya halangan buat ngedeketin ni anak dua cuma satu.. yaitu.. rumah mereka tuh dari ujung ke ujung. si WTP tinggal di Kramat nah si Shinji tinggal di Pondok kopi.. seinget gw WTP pernah bilang kalo rumahnya jauh dia jadi males ngedeketinnya ( seinget gw lho pe..) ..nah pegimane dong jadinya? lah?! kenapa jadi gw yang pusing.hehe

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BTW, back to the story line .." I like to read WTP's blog".. setiap gw baca tulisannya nih anak ngga tau kenapa bisa buat gw ketawa-ketawa sambil senyum-senyum ngga keruan.. lucu aja. Ya ngga salah sih kalo dia kepilih buat nulis salah satu artikel di Majalah kawula muda yang gaul-gaul and funky itu.. HAI. lo semua pada tau kan? Setiap tulisannya mengalir gitu aja .. ngga ada yang dibuat-buat atau dipaksain .. jayusnya juga enak aja.. dan pas aja di tiap struktur kalimatnya ( apaan sih gw).. ya begitulah.. buat WTP.. tingkatin terus kejayusan dan kebodohanmu dalam menulis.. huahaha.. btw,lo pasti geer berat gw ngomongin lo.. jangan nyimeng mulu lu.. Insyaf,,HUAHAHAHAHA

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Gw percaya ada yang namanya Pro dan Kontra..and it happens to me right now.. some people called me stupid or whatever He/She wants to call me because I wrote the entries of Incidents of Indonesian people in Malaysia in MY blog. and they both are Malaysian. Mereka marah karena gw menganggap semua orang Malaysia itu sama.. sekarang satu yang gw minta.. tolong buktikan kalau emang tidak semua orang Malaysia bertindak seperti itu, karena setahun terakhir ini Malaysia cuma bisa ngasih bukti kalo kekerasan jadi salah satu kebiasaan buruk mereka..tapi ngga sedikit temen-temen gw yang memberikan kata sepakat buat gw.. mereka setuju sama pendapat gw.. dan banyak juga milis-milis yang berpendapat sama apa yang gw rasain.

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Jangan jelek-jelekin Indonesia.. Gw ngga suka banget. U need us.. and we need u. Siapa yang bilang Indonesia negara yang ngga punya apa-apa? mungkin kalo mau di itung-itung harta kekayaannya.. Indonesia bisa jadi salah satu negara terkaya di dunia. Indonesia kaya akan keindahan alamnya, keragaman pulau-pulanya, keragaman budayanya, keragaman ras nya, keagaman bahasa, dan adat istiadatnya.. kayak lagu kita satu ini..

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" Dari Sabang sampai Merauke berjajar pulau-pulau.. sambung menyambung menjadi satu. .itulah Indonesia.. "

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Indonesia walaupun berbeda-beda tapi tetap satu jua ( Bhineka Tunggal Ika).. Lo ngga akan bisa dapetin keragaman dan keunikan Indonesia di tempat manapun.. cuma ada satu di Indonesia.. lo ngga bisa nyari makanan Padang, sambel terasi, pete, jengkol, baju-baju adat yang unik2, rumah adat yang memukau, atau pesona keindahan alam pulau Sumatra, Kalimantan, Sulawesi, Jawa, Maluku, Papua, dllnya dimanapun juga.. cuma ada di Indonesia tercinta. Dont u dare to deny that??!

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if u r not happy with my entries.. just pretend I didn't write anything about it. this is MY blog. u have no right to scold or condemn me.. I don't even know you..except for constructive criticsm ( thnks for one of u, I appreciate it)..once again.. I was looking these cases from the other side.. unlike yours..I'm more happy if u can give other perception POLITELY towards me without emotional prejudice. thanks.

Bali I'm in love..

This was my favourite and amazing holiday with my cousins.. Bali is beautiful island I've ever seen..

Ubud.. visiting my relatives.. hahahaha

Dreamland is the real land.. sooo lovely..!

Wonderful night with my cousins in Bali.. practicing my salsa dance.. : )

Ulun Danu Temple that located on the shore of Barak Lake

Beautiful Kintamani..

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A girl invites me to read her entries.. did she says that she won't forgive me? Why did she keep on visiting my blog ? I am Ok when she said she really doesn't care anymore about me or my existance.. Ok.. but I've done my part too.. I apologised to her from the bottom of my heart. sincerely!

Gw ngga bohong when I said sorry to her.. that's true when we've made peace in the first time to each other..and suddenly I went beserk for some reasons.. And u girl wanna know Why did I do that? because I believe with my own assumptions about what happened to me.. I found another evidences and it was so sickening me.. I didn't pretend nice to you when we forgived each other in the first place.. I thought that was the start to know and make a friend with you.. butpoems, the pics, and the entries of ur blog, and anything I found that related to all.. I've made up my mind.. that u lied to me as u said u never have special feelings to Fikri, ur OWN relative !..thats enough to explaining all..yet, Fikri told me what happening with u guys when u were in Bukit tinggi.. in the first I wasn't sure with Fikri and I believed you.. tapi setelah gw telaah dan gw pikir secara logika secara logika wanita.. gw pelajari dan gw investigasi myself.. I've changed my mind..and I don't believe you..

And why suddenly I came to ur blog and say sorry to u.. just because I really wanna do that. Dan gw pikir Bulan suci Ramadhan udah mau dateng.. and I realized u r the one I hate so much most of the year.. it's so hurt me to hate u.. I don't wanna hate anybody.. esp. you.. dalam hati gw masih ada beban karena gw punya satu kebencian sama lo.. gw benci karena lo ngga pernah mengakui perasaan lo.. lo terus2an bilang kalo lo ngga pernah punya perasaan apa-apa.. gw tau lo boong setelah gw lihat semua bukti-bukti yang lo bikin sendiri.. I know u were manipulating ur own words as u were explaing it to me..

Gw konsekuen sama omongan gw setelah gw minta maaf sama lo kemaren ..gw ngga benci lo lagi.. gw udah lupain dan maafin semua perbuatan lo..

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Masalah Penganiayaan orang Indonesia di Malaysia TIDAK ada hubungannya dengan perasaan benci yang PERNAH (not anymore) gw rasain with some girl who is Malaysian.. not AT ALL. Semua opini gw tentang itu semua bener-bener my opinions without feeling angry with the girl I hated .. ngga berhubungan sama sekali.

Gw sebagai Indonesian jelas kecewa dan sakit sama perlakuan pihak Malaysia.. mungkin gw emang salah menganggap semua orang Malaysia berprilaku sama kayak mereka pihak-pihak yang tidak bertanggungjawab itu.. I'm sorry, Malaysian!.. I really am.. I just so angry when the first time I know that.. gw bener-bener kecewa..

Pertama gw pikir kenapa gw menganggap semua orang Malaysia itu sama.. karena secara awam gw pikir.. Seorang Polisi itu aparat keamanan di suatu negara.. Polisi itu seorang yang sangat dijunjung dan dihormati sama warganegaranya.. seorang yang mempunyai perlakuan yang disegani.. sekarang Kalau Polisi suatu negara aja udah berprilaku seperti itu bagaimana warganegaranya?? ada dua kemungkinan antara lebih baik atau lebih buruk.. tapi pemikiran gw lebih pada kemungkinan kedua.. this is my own values ya..

Gw ngeliat hubungan suatu negara dan warganegaranya sama istilah 'tubuh'.. tubuh kita terdiri dari tangan, mata, kuping, dll. Apabila tangan kita dicubit maka mata kita akan menangis dan apabila mata menangis maka tangan yang akan menghapusnya. Sekarang Polisi Malaysia itu merupakan bagian dari Malaysia dan seharusnya Malaysia (semuanya) berusaha membantu para polisi itu.. sekarang bagaimana caranya?? caranya pihak Malaysia (semuanya) meminta maaf sama Indonesia atas nama perlakuan yang udah dilakukan sama para polisi itu..dan diharapkan pihak Malaysia memberikan edukasi kepada warganegarnya supaya kejadian seperti itu ngga terulang.. bukannya warganegara Malaysia yang merasa tidak bersalah atas perlakuan para polisi itu lantas memisahkan diri dan merasa tersinggung karena seluruh Indonesian blame them all..sekarang tunjukin dong kalo tidak semua orang malaysia bersikap seperti itu.. kita Indonesian menunggu pembuktian itu sekarang.

I know people makes mistakes.. tapi apa melakukan kesalahan itu berkali-kali..kayak contoh kasus Ceriyati dan belum selesai kasus Ceriyati ada lagi kasus pembunuhan Indonesian maid di Selangor.. apa mereka tidak belajar dari kesalahan? masih terasa di telinga dua kasus tentang TKW itu.. ada lagi kasus baru masalah wasit karate kita.. apa salah gw menyimpulkan semua Malaysian seperti itu? once again.. this is my own opinion..

I don't hate Malaysia.. I hate their attitude treated bad Indonesians.. bukan karena gw pernah benci sama satu perempuan disana lantas gw benci sama semua orang Malaysia. I am not THAT shallow,girl! I have lots of friend in Malaysia.. dan gw berhubungan baik sama mereka.. seperti contoh.. gw tetep sms-an sama Nurdian yang tinggal di Selangor.. sama Hakim yang tinggal di Kuala Lumpur.. gw ngga benci mereka.. malah mereka mengakui kalo mereka (as Malaysian) salah atas perbuatan salah satu dari warganegara mereka.. I appreciate them.

If I hate Malaysia.. buat apa tahun depan gw berencana Hoilday disana sama Fikri and my bestfriends..?? ya kan.. ? menganggap Malaysia itu saudara dari Indonesia..nah itu yang gw sesalkan atas perlakuan salah satu warganegaranya yang menyakitkan mereka.. which is bukan salah satu dari warganergaranya tapi salah Empat dari warganegaranya.. apa semua orang melakukan kesalahan yang SAMA dan bertepatan pada saat yang bersamaan pula.. gw ngga abis pikir aja..

yah.. buat pihak yang merasa tersinggung with my entries.. I'm sorry.. I have my own opinions about it.. dun ever teach me what I should do or what I should be.. because I am not teach u what you should do or what you should be.. we have different values about anything.. yah.. contoh nya sebuah balok.. kalo kita lihat balok itu dari sisi samping maka kita liat sebuah segiempat..dan apabila kita lihat balok itu dari depan maka kita lihat suatu persegi panjang.. begitu juga kayak kita lihat suatu permasalahan.. contoh kasus ini.. gw ngeliat masalah ini dari sisi wargenegara Indonesia yang berulang-kali mendapatkan perlakuan ngga enak dari pihak Malaysia..

sekali lagi gw bukan so patriotisme atau apa.. please, be Mature people! dan gw percaya kemajuan suatu bangsa tergantung pada kaumnya.