story of a girl

2007-11-09T19:50:00.000+08:00

I received 3 e-mails from people named Sarah Dyson, Tika wildblood, and Jason Keller. I don't know who they are. and They said that they like my style and hoping to know more bout me. Ya something like that lah..at the same time! it's kinda weird,huh??!! How did they found me? where? and when?
but well, I'll always open my door to those who want to be my friend. Thank you, peeps.. : )

Yes, I'm here for making friends with all people with decent and nice hearts and personality. NOT two face personality like some people, mind you! People who have the same interested to me. I'm here not to invite u into fighting or maybe I'm here not to be invited to attend your jumble of mess because you dislike me or you hate my writings or maybe it's because you want to be me. Dig a hole then bury yourself is the best way for you, baby! Ok.

Fyi, I also have a foe/enemy in this beautiful internet world. it's very annoying , u know! (dig my past entries if u curious enough, ; p)

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I have one friend's wedding party to attend on Sunday.

I have MANY assignments to be due. fiuhh..

The interview went good.

I got a job on Sunday morning with Gena.

I haven't do any revision for exams on Monday.

My Lecturer gave me chocolate last week. hehe

I can't wait for tomorrow.

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while I was YouTube-ing , I found this cute little girl sings my fav singer's song. Hero by Mariah Carey. This girl is so cute, her smile and voice make me wanna smile too.

Click here yaaaaaa! 0)

it's worth seeing!

2007-11-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

Watched "License to wed" with Fikri after maghrib... it's romantic comedy movie.. this movie is about a couple who are about to get married and the steps that they and others who married in the church of Reverend Frank(Robbie Williams) endured before receiving the holy sacrament. The brides Ben Murphy (John krasinski) and Sadie Jones (Mandy Moore) should pass the marriage preparation course. They're trying to complete the course but find it difficult, especially the no sex for the three weeks part of the course, which Ben struggles with. I laughed during the show, especially the two robot babies part which they look older for their ages *shudder*.. I Love the way Ben wrote his marriage vows on the sands. *woohoo..* Perfecto! The funny part was when Ben pick up their rings and finds that the inscription on the rings read "Never to fart", when he wrote "Never to part", the jewelers are actually pretty funny in this scene.

well go watch, peeps! this is a good movie for a day in which you want pass the time with something not too serious!

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The midtest officially start today. I supposed to be studying "Hukum Pengangkutan" tonight. well, gotta get done with this post. studying. and continuing in the morning. or Subuh!

I'm going to take a job interview tomorrow.. which is the office located VERY near from my house. or should I say, my neighbour..hehe..

Fikri offered me to be a part on Jiffest this year. I'm still searchin where am I supposed to put my cv . ya ya ya I need an extramoney ..hehe

bye bye.. I'll be update soon.

thanks for reading , my friends *and my VUP who always stalk my blog* !

VUP ~ Very Unimportant Person * in case u dunno*

oh ya.. I tried using who'sOnClient so I KNOW who stalks my blog.

Stop right now!

2007-11-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

Dulu gw fans berat sama grupband cewe asal Inggris, Spice girls. Lagunya dari A sampe Z gw juga hafal. Dulu gw kepengen banget gayanya kayak si Mel C. SPorty, keren,suaranya melengking , bagus banget.. pokonya mereka sejajar dengan Penyanyi Favorit gw Mariah Carey menurut gw...

Gw seneng banget denger kabar kalo akhir tahun ini mereka bakal ngadain konser reunian kolaborasi sama grupband U2.. can't wait..I love them soooo much.

Ada satu lagu yang gw hafal banget gayanya sampe sekarang. yang judul nya 'Stop'. Dulu jaman-jamannya gw SMP kelas 1 gw udah suka banget sama mereka, kalo ada video klip 'stop' di Mtv, nyokap gw langsung manggil dan dengan asap-nya gw ke depan tv sambil nyanyi disertai dengan gaya nya pula. hehe

"STOP" - Spice Girls

You just walk in I make you smile
It's cool but you don't even know me
You take an inch, I run a mile
Can't win you're always right behind me.
And we know that you could go and find some other
Take or leave it and just don't even bother
Caught in a craze it's just a phase
Or will this be around forever

Don't you know it's going to fast
Racing so hard you know it won't last
Don't you know what can't you see
Slow it down, Read the sign so you know just where you're going

[Chorus]

Stop right now, thank you very much
I need somebody with the human touch
Hey you, always on the round
gotta slow if down baby, gotta have some fun
do do.. always be together
Ba da.. stay that way forever

And we know that you could go and find some other
take or leave it or just don't even bother

You know who you are and yes, you're gonna breakdown
You're crossed the line so you're gonna have to turn around

*Back to chorus

Gotta slow it down baby, gotta have some fun
Gotta keep it down honey, lay your back on the line
'cause I don't care about the money,
Don't be wasting my time,
You need less speed, get off my case
You gotta slow it down baby, just get out of my face

For my VUP : STOP to checking on me , and STOP ruining and bothering my life. just stay that away forever.

Don't hate me because I am beautiful, but hate me because your boyfriend think I am.~ Madonna

Abang Ijal's wedding

2007-11-03T12:23:00.000+08:00

Kemaren acara Pernikahan sepupu gw abang ijal sama Kak Linda. Akad nikah nya pagi, dan gw ngga bisa dateng karena gw emang harus kuliah buat ngasih tugas kontrak gw ke pak Teguh. Jadinya gw cuma dateng ke resepsinya aja di Departemen Sosial, Salemba.

Sepupu sepupu semuanya pake kebaya seragam pink-pink.. termasuk gw. here are the pics..

How do I look? I know I look weird ya?! hehe.. but well, at least my bf said that I look alike Beyonce. bwahahaha... : p

They are all my sweety cousins.. love y'all..

Fikri's coming too.. I just realised that he's hot and handsome,hehehe.. *piss babe*.. And thats my Mom, she is pretty, isn't she? she's fatter now.

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Beyonce is definitely right gorgeous and awesome. gosh. she's all out. she's damn cool and hot.

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I gotta go. My mom wants go shopping. she's looking for a shoes. I wanna go along with her.
so bye...

Besok??!

2007-11-01T09:36:00.000+08:00

hayah. I can't sign in Y!m . Again. : (

Berita duka.

Bokapnya temen kelas gw Boki meninggal dunia.Innalillahi wa innalillahi rojiun.
Gw ngga kebayang gw ditinggal sama orang yang gw sayang, orang terdekat gw. Gw ngga tega ngeliat Boki sampe sedih kayak gitu. Gw ngeliat dia kayaknya nyeeseeell banget. dia nangis terus. gw ngga tega. gw cuma bisa berdoa semoga semua keluarga yang ditinggalkan diberikan ketabahan. Amien.

Gw belajar buat ngga terpusat sama orang lain seperti buku yang gw baca yang di kasih Fikri waktu kita Anniversary-an. Di buku itu bilang kita ngga boleh terpusat dengan Orang lain. Kita ngga boleh tergantung dengan orang lain. Yang gw sadar hidup gw masih bergantung banget sama orangtua gw. Sama Bokap gw. Gw masih perlu buat biaya bulanan gw. biaya ini itu walaupun gw kadang-kadang bisa menghasilkan uang sendiri , tapi gw masih tetep perlu mereka. Gw butuh mereka buat orang-orang yang support gw, buat ngeredain kalo gw lagi sedih dan emosi. Sekarang kalo tiba-tiba gw kehilangan mereka? gimana?

Pertama, Berdoa dan ikhlas.
Kedua, Berusaha.
Ketiga, Optimis.

Gw harus lebih mandiri, lebih kerja keras.
Gw harus bisa capai Goals gw.

Gw harus ngelakuin yang terbaik buat Keluarga dan orang-orang yang sayang sama gw. Hari ini, besok, ataupun lusa.

Gw ngga tau apa yang bakal terjadi besok. jangankan besok, 2 menit atau 1 jam kedepan dari sekarang. Ngga ada satupun yang tau nanti gimana.

Gw mulai untuk selalu berfikir :
Hari ini adalah hari gw satu-satunya.
Hari ini adalah hari terakhir dalam hidup gw.

Mungkin dengan begitu gw jadi bisa lebih menghargai namanya hidup, namanya bernafas, namanya berjalan, tertawa, dan belajar.

" Hari ini gw akan mengatur kamar gw dengan baik. Ngga akan ada yang gw biarin dalam keadaan kacau balau. Gw akan selalu buat kamar gw berih dan rapi."

"Hari ini gw akan memperhatikan kebersihan tubuh dan penampilan gw. Gw juga akan menjaga kerapihan gw dan akan menyeimbangkan diri ketika berjalan, berbicara, dan berbuat."

"Hari ini gw bakal berjuang untuk patuh sama Allah SWT, shalat dengan khusuk tanpa bolong-bolong lagi."

"Hari ini gw akan mencoba hal-hal baru, gw akan mencoba membantu orang lain, membuat mereka yang sedih jadi tertawa, membuat orang lain bahagia."

"Hari ini gw harus memaafkan orang lain, meminta maaf kepada orang lain, gw harus sabar, selalu tersenyum, jauh dari kebencian."

"Wahai masa lalu yang telah jauh meninggalkanku, aku tidak akan menangisi kepergianmu. Aku tidak akan mengingat-ingatmu, walaupun hanya sesaat, karena kau telah pergi menjauh dariku dan takkan pernah kembali."

"Wahai masa depan, kamu berada di bayangan yang tiada terlihat, sehingga aku tidak akan terobsesi dengan-dengan mimpi-mimpimu. Aku tidak akan disibukkan oleh apa yang akan datang karena esok hari tidak ada dan belum diciptakan."

"Hari ini adalah hariku satu-satunya."

Hip Hip Hurraa

2007-10-30T23:39:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday, Ayang !

Semoga tambah dewasa
Semoga tambah sayang sama aku
Semoga tambah hormat sama keluarga kamu
Semoga tambah baik sama aku
Semoga makin deket sama Allah SWT
Semua yang terbaik buat kamu

Aku
Sayang
Kamu,
:)

`Tasya`

Very random.. ; )

2007-10-26T20:41:00.000+08:00

Random pictures..

Dufan..

Holiday in Cirebon..

They're nice, smart, funny, beautiful..

yup! they're my bestfriends.

Click to enlarge the size. Ok.

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Gw nonton berita kemaren, ada seseorang yang mengaku sebagai Nabi setelah Nabi Muhammad SAW. namanya lupa gw. Dia bilang kalo sebenernya solat 5 waktu, puasa, dan haji itu BELUM wajib. parah banget ya. udah gitu orang itu merubah 2 kalimat syahadat, dia menghilangkan kata Muhammadnya . Dan dia dengan begitu yakin dan percaya diri mengakui dirinya sebagai Rasul. Dunia mau kiamat. naudzubillahmindzalik..

Ini jelas aliran sesat. bukan gw sok alim atau ngerti agama, di Al-quran udah jelas banget kalo nabi Muhammad SAW itu nabi terakhir. kalo ngga salah ada ayat yang bunyinya " Kuturunkan Dia ( Muhammad SAW) sebagai nabi akhir jaman." ..hmm.. maaf kalo gw salah.. yang kalo ditafsirkan berarti Nabi terakhir kan?!

Gw takut banget aliran ini makin menyebar. Seharunya Agama itu tidak layak buat diperdebatkan, terlalu suci buat digituin. Kata ustadz gw.. Pedoman hidup manusia cuma Al-Qur'an. Kalo lagi sedih, bingung, dan pengen tahu kebenaran semuanya..cukup baca dan pahami setiap arti ayatnya..

dan parahnya lagi si orang yang mengaku-mengaku itu selalu menyebut nabi Muhammad dengan sebutan Muhammad AS bukan SAW.. ckckck.. apa yang buat dia ngerasa kayak gitu ya?!

Gw takut adek-adek gw dirumah pada percaya kalo setelah Muhammad ada nabi lagi. gw selalu bilang ke Shifa kalo orang itu salah dan jangan dipercaya. gilee. kacau!

Happy Lebaran!

2007-10-21T14:52:00.000+08:00

Thanks for those who sent me wishes Lebaran. Thanks a lot! : )

Happy Idul Fitri.

Minal Aidin Walfaidzin.

Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Batin.

Lebaran seru banget. Solat Ied bareng di masjid Sunda Kelapa trus langsung Makan makanan yang amat sangat enak sampe-sampe berat gw naek 2 Kg jadi 51 Kg.. sheesh! Hari Senin mulai nge-gym lagi nih kayaknya. ngumpul sama keluarga tercinta. Oma Maudy pun bela-belain dateng dari Belanda cuma buat Lebaran bareng. seneeng bgt.. walaupun tahun ini Angpao yang gw terima ngga kayak tahun kemaren, yang ada malah tahun ini kita yang bagi-bagi angpao buat sepupu kita yang masih kecil

Lebaran hari ke-2 giliran ngumpul di rumah Wa Ida. here are the pics 2nd day of Lebaran.

Left to right : Kak Ala-Mba Ika-Wa' Ida-Noni-Me-Fara-Wa' Ida kustur

Funny face of us. ; D

Hari ke-3 Lebaran kita sepupu-sepupu semua bertandang ke rumah Om Eman dan Tante Ade. Di sambut dengan Spaghetti Carbonara yang hmm.. rasanya mantap banget! Ngobrol-ngobrol sampe sore trus langsung diajakin ke Strawberry Cafe di daerah Tanjung Duren. Tempatnya lumayan. setiap meja dikasih 1 permainan gitu. ada Jumanji, Uno stalko, dll. seru banget! walaupun mayoritas orang yang dateng bermata sipit. yaeyalah daerah Jakarta Barat gitu loh!

Hari Lebaran ke-3 bertepatan sama Ulang Tahunnya sepupu gw, Noni. Jadi abis dari strawberry cafe kita langsung pindah ke daerah Kemang. Rencananya mau dinner di D'Cost tapi semua seafoodnya sold out jadi terpaksa kita ngejalanin plan b ke Warung Pasta, tapi semua meja penuh dan kita ngga dapet tempat. akhirnya jalanin plan c lagi ke Chopstick. tapi ternyata porsi yang tersisa tinggal 3 porsi sedangkan kita ber-25 orang. udah sempet agak-agak udah males dan kesel karena si yang punya acara , Noni. udah berkali-kali gw ingetin buat nge-reserved tempat nah jadinya begini nih..

Keadaan udah laper berat. semua sepupu udah pasrah aja mau makan dimana. yang penting nih perut diisi. Akhirnya Puzza Hut satu-satunya tempat yang ada tempat dan stok makanannya masih ada. syukurlah..

Happy birthday Non.. Wishing u all the best!

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you know what??! Something good happened between me AND the Black Eyed Peas. That was so nice and awesome. precious experience . but I thought it's too private to share. sorry..peeps!

Beyonce is coming next week. Me and Fikri want to go. I want to go. but my parents are coming on that day. Apa mereka keberatan ya kalo gw tinggal semaleman di hari pertama kedatangan mereka??! oh.. puhh..lease.. let me go .. hehe

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Masalah Malaysia. TERNYATA bukan gw satu-satunya orang yang berfikiran seperti itu. bukan gw satu-satunya orang yang menganggap mereka seperti itu. ngga percaya??! coba lo baca ini..

Penelusuran 1 click here

Penelusuran 2 click here

Penelusuran 3 click here

Penelusuran 4 click here

Penelusuran 5 click here

Penelusuran 6 click here

yah.. mungki itu cuma sebagian kecil aja yang gw kasih unjuk . lo bisa cari sendiri by google. yah.. at least apa yang mau gw ungkapin udah diwakilin sama mereka-mereka ini. hehe

Jagoan- Sherina Munaf

Dia pikir
Dia yang paling hebat
merasa paling jago
dan paling dahsyat
dia memang jago
(ayam Jago..kukuruyukk.. petok.. petok.. hahaha )
dia memang kuat
(kuat makannya alias rakus.. hahaha)

Dia pikir
Dia yang paling hebat
merasa paling pintar
dan paling kuat
Dia memang pintar
(pintar ngibul..hahaha)

2007-10-09T20:04:00.000+08:00

I've seen it in You tube..

semua pasti udah tau tentang masalah 'pembajakan' lagu 'Rasa Sayange' milik Indonesia.. buat yang belum liat lo bisa click here..

I am not going to comment about it for some reasons ( you know lah,..) nanti ada some Malaysian yang marah-marah sama tulisan gw lagi. Kan cape.. huehehe.. ( you can read my last entries if you're curious enough)..

and Oh, I am not looking for a fight here. just wanna share with others.. Ok.

judging or just making a comment?

2007-10-07T00:32:00.000+08:00

Just got back from Buka bersama in Sister Lenny's house. but too bad my cousin, Fara felt a sick. She was puking all over the room. but she's getting better now.

and Oh, I drove and reached the speed 130 km/hour. Lucky me, My grandma didn't complain about it at all. *nenek gw emang funky* huehehe..

My lesbians Gena and Marini (we known as lesbians in campus, anyway. :p ) phoned me. asking me where I was, and where I wanted to go after diner. but I don't feel like going anywhere and blending my self to the crowd out there for tonight.. I just wanna at home. Lying in my comfy bed and spending my time alone. No.. I am not depressed or sedang putus cinta or something that falls me into that 'pathetic category'. I just wanna like this. Occay!

Fikri just texted and told me that he's in Jambi right now. hmm.. I miss him .*'(

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I can't believe which started out as sounding so right could be so wrong. Maybe It's just typical of life to let me learn kan? it's been a long time since I felt REALLY disappointed and annoyed about something by someone. I call her as my VUP (Very Unimportant Person).but being emotional person I am. It's been the center of my thoughts and a lot of times, the main topic of my entries.was Ok then. I just felt sorry for this pathetic chick who thinks she's the one who's right and smart.

and oh, I often hear people saying "don't judge people what people do." or "don't judge people based on your values."

the question is. "What is the differences between judgement and comment?"

When you say. " they are look like a sick couple",or " they use their make up too thick and makes them look so old." or " her skirt too short and doesn't suit with her." or even worse. When you say these things. I know that you don't mean to think negatively or criticise. But unconsiously these things came into ur mind because you are silently judging others. I know you'll deny it. That you're not judging them. but you're just making a comment. isn't that another form of judgment?? LOL. I think there's no wrong in judging if u learn from the judgment you made.right?

So.. don't ask people not to judge you. simply because they have their own right to judge you based on their values.

I.Have.No.Inspiration

2007-10-06T16:33:00.000+08:00

Dimana semua orang pada mudik pulang kampung. cuma gw doang yang ngga pulang kampung. Kemaren gw udah sebulan ke Samarinda, jadi lebaran ini ngga pulang lagi. Dan lagipula bokap nyokap gw bakal dateng ke Jakarta awal November ini.

Fikri tadi subuh berangkat ke Bukittinggi sama keluarganya, lebaran disana. *hiks..hiks.. sediihh* .. mana sahabat-sahabat tersayang gw juga pulang kampung lagi! uh.. sebell.. Gena hari Minggu ini pulang ke Cirebon trus Marini hari Rabu bakal ke Lampung.. trus gw di Jakarta deh!hmm..ngga papa ..kan masih banyak temen-temen gw yang lain.

Sahabat SMA gw Tya, udah dateng ke Jakarta. Dia ngajakin gw buka bareng, tapi belum tau kapan sih. seneenngnyaaa Tya udah dateng.. kangen banget sama ni bocah! ;)

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Kemaren buka e-mail, ada message ..

Congratulations, Tasya!

Your IQ score is 136

Thanks for joining TestCafe.

*yippiiee..happy happy dance*

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Hari Senin udah mulai libur Lebaran. Upps..no no no! ngga ada waktu gw buat berleha-leha..soalnya Dosen-dosen gw yang baik-hati-sekali itu dengan sekonyong-konyongnya ngasih tugas yang amat-sangat-banyak-dan-menyusahkan. Gosh. capee deee..gw udah harus ngerjain dari sekarang nih, tapi hasrat malas gw masih sering mampir di diri gw nih. Gimana dong? gimanaaa...

Duh, gw lagi ngga ada inspirasi buat nulis nih.. maaf yaaaa...

Btw, gw ada buka bareng sama Keluarga gw hari ini di Rumah Kak Lenny di Meruya..gw pergi dulu yah..

Despra Levin One..

2007-09-30T20:37:00.000+08:00

Seharian gw di Rumah.. dan tau ngga dari Jam 12 siang sampe mau Buka gw ngga keluar-keluar kamar.. Gw maen Fish tycoon aja di Kamar sambil nontonin berita TV.. yang cukup bikin gw kesel pas nonton berita.. sekelompok yang menamakan diri mereka FPI ( Front Pembela Islam) dengan main hakim sendiri ngancurin warung-warung/ Restauran-restaurant di daerah Jawa Tengah ( kalo ngga salah), FPI tidak memperbolehkan warung-warung itu buka selama bulan puasa..apa masalahnya ya?? .. Tindakan mereka terlalu berlebihan menurut gw.. Kan kasian sama yang punya warung ngga bersalah gitu.. emang salah apa mereka buka warung mereka? apa kelompok yg menamakan diri sebagai FPI itu ngga sadar kita tinggal di Negara Hukum..bukan di Negara Islam.. Dimana warganegara Indonesia bukan cuma tinggal orang-orang beragama Islam aja.. kita semua tau Indonesia mengijinkan 5 agama untuk bisa diyakini warganegara Indonesianya kan?!

Siapa yang tahu kalo warung-warung itu jadi mata pencaharian buat makan sehari-hari mereka?? kalo udah diancurin gitu sama aja ngancurin hidup yang punya warung , ya kan?! Kalo alasan FPI ngancurin warung-warung itu karena mengganggu ibadah puasa orang Muslim .. kenapa ngga sekalian FPI nge-demo semua stasiun TV yang banyak ngiklanin produk-produk makanan atau minuman di siang hari yg cukup menggoda itu??! basically, itu kan tergantung individunya aja.. kalo iman nya kuat-kuat aja sih ngga bakalan kegoda sama yang gituan. tul ngga?

Tindakan FPI itu malah mempermalukan / menjelekkan nama orang Muslim di depan agama lain.. yang gw tau Islam ngga mengajarkan tentang kekerasan kayak gitu..

Si Pacar ngambek-ngambek mulu nih...fiuh..

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Gw baca di blog nya Tessa..gw jadi inget masa-masa SMP lagi deh.. Inget latian Cheerleaders bareng Anak-anak sama Kak Vina sang pelatih yang keren banget kalo udah bikin koreografi. Dan yang paling membanggakan Team Cheerleaders kita yang dikenal dengan nama Despra Levin One itu ngga pernah kalah setiap ngikutin kejuaraan-kejuaraan .. pokonya paling banter Juara 2 lah.. itu juga jarang..hehe

Oh iya, waktu jaman-jaman cheers dulu gw pernah kebagian bikin menara yang waktu itu gw diangkat dalam posisi Kaki melebar ke kanan dan ke kiri a.k.a Split.. udah diangkat gitu.. paha gw dinaekin sama Deftine yang jadi maskot cheers kita sambil teriak "Despra levin One....cheeeerrsss" .. hmm.. kangen banget sama masa-masa kayak gitu..

Waktu SMP dulu gw juga pernah ikutan Fashion Show sama si Tessa,, hehe.. seru ya Tes,.. waktu itu kalo ngga salah tempatnya di Mall Lembuswana..dalarangka apaan ya? gw lupa.. itu pengalaman pertama gw ikutan Fashion Show waktu itu.. deg-degan banget,maluuu.. banget.. tapi it was fun and nice experience though.

Belum lagi waktu jaman SMP gw punya Genk-genk an gitu deh.. namanya Crepuscole.. huahahaha.. still remember,Tes?? anggotanya banyak banget.. ada Novy, Nadym a, Fitri, Rara, Uline, Tessa, Ferna, dll.. pokonya Seru deh dulu!

I miss those moments very much..

Coba ada Doraemon ..ge mau pinjem Pintu kemana saja.dan gw mau pergi ke Jaman gw SMP dulu.. pasti seru ya..

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Besok udah kuliah lagi.. banyak tugas nih.. duh,, pusing!

bye..

I'm signing out.

cup cup

Sahur..sahur...!

2007-09-27T10:18:00.000+08:00

Gw ngga sahur kemaren.. pagi-paginya gw tanya ke pembantu gw.
a

Gw : "Mbak, Tasa ngga sahur hari ini .. kok ngga ada yang bangunin sih?"

Mbak gw : "Ngga dibangunin gimana.. semua orang udah teriak bangunin kamu, tapi kamu ngga bangun-bangun!"

Jujur ya. gw ngga ngerasa dibangunin . gw ngga denger apa-apa. seinget gw emang ada yang manggil-manggil nama gw dan rasa-rasanya itu cuma mimpi. ;p

Jam 4.30 gw bangun ( dimana imsak sudah 2 menit lewat), itupun karena ada telfon dari Marini yang udah nelfon 5 kali. Gw langsung lari ke arah ruang makan dan minum satu gelas air putih dan niat puasa.

Tante gw pagi-paginya menyarankan gw buat pasang weker. Dan FYI, gw tuh udah pasang alarm di Handphone gw ..dan cara menset alarmnya gw set tiap 15 menit sekali. contohnya gw mau bangun jam 9 pagi, nah gw mensetnya tuh jam 8.00, 8.15, 8.30.. tapi tetep aj... eh yang bangun malah si Noni ( yang mana jarak kamar gw sama Noni bisa terbilang cukup jauh).. hampir tiap pagi kalo lagi ngga Puasa si Noni ngomel2 "Buset dah sa.. Alarm lo kenceng banget sih.. nyampe ke kamar gw tau!! gw kuliah masih lama ni " . Dan lagi lagi I can't hear that.

Segitu kebonya kah Gw??!!

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Hari ini gw 1 tahun 9 bulan lho.. ngga kerasa ya udah segini aja.. walaupun keadaan kita lagi ngga sebaik biasanya. at least gw seneeneeng banget masih sama dia dalam keadaan apapun.

Yang jelas Bulan Puasa cobaannya emang berat. Semoga gw bisa ngelewatin dengan baik. amien.

Aku sayang kamu, : )

You're the one who jealous with our relationship.

just goddam admit it, smarty pants!

You want to have a life similar to ours, don't you?

I pity you.

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Akhirnya si Tessa udah bikin di blogger.. Welcome to Blogger, babe! gw bakal sering-sering visit blog lo deh Tes..

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Gotta rush. I have 11 am class today.

Tata : )

2007-09-25T23:01:00.000+08:00

"Maling teriak Maling"

it is the same with

" Stalker teriak Stalker"

And they both applied in this case. I dun get why they looked VERY happy when I've been fooled lately.. When ACTUALLY They're just embarrassing themself... I don't mind to give them a Mirror .. : )

'' The Hypocritical Evil and her poor 'sentry' "

***

Duh.. gw masih belum selesai nonton The O.C, masih penasaran sama cerita nya.. gw baru nonton sampe season 2.. *norak ya gw..ndeso *.. dengan alasan gw males beli Dvd nya.. gw berfikiran lebih baik meminjam daripada membeli kalo temen kita ada yang punya, ya ngga?kan lumayan ngirit beberapa rupiah,hehe *ini yang Padang gw apa Fikri ya??!* dan gw udah beberapa kali meminta *agak sedikit memaksa* ke temen gw si Tammy, tapi season 3 sama 4 punya dia lagi di pinjem.. duh,, ko nontonnya lama banget ya tuh yang minjem .. udah hampir 2 minggu gini.. Kepengen liat Seth Cohen sama Summer nya.."Tam, tagih terus ya tam temen lo itu..hehe".

Gw ngga sabar nih buat Kuliah hari Jumat.. Hari jumat jadi hari Favorit gw dalam perkuliahan semester ini.. soalnya semua Dosenfavorit gw ngajar pada hari ini. Dosen 'Tehnik Pembuatan Kontrak' gw ..Bapak Teguh Samudera yang amat sangat menyenangkan dalam mengajarnya.. bikin belajar jadi menyenangkan... ngga pernah serius-serius banget ,, tapi ngga pernah santai-santai banget. Balance lah.. pokonya ni Dosen Low profile banget walaupun udah rahasia umum kalo dia jadi salah satu Lawyer sukses di Indonesia..noo.. dia bukan saudaranya Imam Samudera..hehehe.. tiap Kuliahnya pak Teguh gw sama Nita udah mulai ngegosip deh..mulai Peratiin dari ujung kepala sampe ujung kakinya Pak Teguh..hari ini si Bapak pake merk apa ya?? FYI, Dosen ini dosen yang paling trendy and branded deh kalo make barang.. Mulai dari kemeja,dasi, celana, kacamata,sampe sepatunya kalo di total-total bisa sampe kisaran puluhan juta tuh..ckckc..dahsyat ni bapak ..*ngga ada kerjaan ya gw pake ngitung2in segala..yah.. intermezzo..*

Trus ada lagi Dosen 'Hukum Lembaga Pembiayaan' gw yang asli Batak.. kalo ngomong udah kayak yang paling Batak sendiri aja.. hehe walaupun mempunyai nama asli Ahmad Mulyadi.. ngga nyambung kan? orang Batak atau orang Jawa nih?? Tapi si Bapak selalu bersikeras kalo beliau orang Batak.. hmm.. lo udah nonton Nagabonar jadi 2 kan? nah.. persis banget deh cara ngomongnya sama si Nagabonar. Pak mul biasa gw manggilnya juga enak banget ngajarinnya.. yang kadang-kadang emang suka agak aneh gitu.. si Bapak suka cerita yang menurut kita-kita ngga lucu tapi Si Bapak menganggap ceritanya sangat lucu..jadi malah dia yang ketawa..yang mau ngga mau kita sekelas harus ketawa juga ,hehe.. Pokonya gw cinta dah sama dua orang Dosen ini.

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"LISTEN- Beyonce "

Listen to the song here in my heart

a melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within

Its only beginning to fing release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard

They will not be pushed aside and turned

Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]

Listen

I am alone at a crossroads

I'm not at home in my own home

And I've tried and tried

To say whats on my mind

You should have known

Now I'm done believing you

You don'tknow what I'm feeling

I'm more than what

You've made of me

I followed the voice, you gave to me

But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened

There was someone here inside

Someone I thought had died

So long ago

And I'm screaming out

And my dreams will be heard

They will not be pushed aside or turned

Into your own,all 'cause you won't listen

I don't know where I belong

But I'll be moving on

If you don't, if you won't

* I'm loving it*

I'm the one who should laughing! hehe

2007-09-19T15:37:00.000+08:00

Remember I told you that I've been fooled by joining some quiz in someone's blog. Which was They asked me to put three names. I just have ONE in mind and TWO names in order to completing the spaces. Here are they..

1. Akmal Fikri. (some of you know him as my boyfriend)

<<< The one that I love : )

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2. Ryan Nirwan.

<<<> My 5-years-old cousin

3. Idep

<<3-years-old>

Maybe YOU're right.. I Have special feelings to these 'boys'.. hahaha..*lauging-to-the-floor* yeah.. because I am not being hypocrite when I have special feeling for someone then I'm gonna admit that! I'm happy .. I'm not like yours ..when get caught had special feelings towards my man by seeing the poems, and all YOU dedicated to my man *not ur cousin anymore~like my bf said* and YOU're the one who didn't admit that. Because YOU don't want to look like a pathetic sore looser. ya kan?

So.. Who's actually being fooled?? ; D

P/s : for Fikri, " Sorry Ayang because I have crushes with the 'Boys' above..but I think u can find them in my home this Saturday.. u can punch or kick them if u want because They've took my heart. "uahahahaha...Don't get mad because I love them too . : )

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Btw, Fikri has his own blog too.. it's private place ONLY for US. ;P

Think Big ! It's all possible...

2007-09-16T07:13:00.000+08:00

Kemaren Buka Puasa bersama Keluarga gw di rumah. Hampir semuanya dateng tapi Bang Ijal sama Kak Lenny ngga bisa dateng karena ada urusan mendadak. Dan gw kebagian bikin Puding coklat. and lucky me, Puding coklat gw habis tak tersisa..padahal gw bikinnya juga rada-rada pasrah.. gw ngga tau deh apa kemanisan atau malah kurang manis..kan gw lagi puasa.. hehe.

Tadinya temen-temen gw pada mau buka bareng di Rumah tapi karena udah ada acara Buka bareng keluarga gw akhirnya di undur minggu depan.. Oh iya, Cobel juga ngundang gw ke acara ulang taunnya gitu..semacam syukuran sekalian buka bareng, tapi Sorry bel.. gw ngga bisa dateng.. I'd say Happy belated birthday ya..

Gw makan banyak banget.. Spaghetti nya Tante Ade.. hmm... Enaaaaaaaakkkkkkkk banget! di keluarga gw Tante Ade yang cantik dan baik hati ini emang Specialist Italian Food,, pokonya kalo udah bikin Spaghetti, Fettucini, Lasagna.. Numero Uno deh rasanya.. yah.. Secara Tante Ade gedenya di luar jadi ngga heran juga kenapa jago banget masaknya.

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Unconsciously I came into someone's blog.. I tried the quiz.. and yeah, I've been fooled! I know the reason Why did he put that Quiz.. I thought he only wanna know what's name his love interest would type. and hopefully he'd be one of the names.. hehe.. ya kan? good effort juga..

Honestly, I know someone who's the one for me.. Akmal Fikri lah.. hehe : D . been thinking to fool Fikri.. : p .. tapi ngga mungkin lah.. because he reads my blog. *hiks hiks*

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You deserve to have the life you want. So, what are you waiting for?

STEP 1 :

Set your sights

What to do : Pick a goal, like one day running your own business or finding the cure for cancer, and keep on focus on it.

Why : Because the top reason people don't reach their goals is that they get sidetracked. You need to answer the questions I suggested below. They'll make you keep motivated and on track.

What is the one thing you want to achieve more than anything else?
What pictures and quotes will inspire you the most to reach that goal?
Now take those quotes and images and glue them to a posterboard. then hang it on your wall, so you'll see it everyday.

Bottom line : If you're constantly thinking about what you want to achieve and how to get there, working hard toward your goal will become part of your daily routine. and you'll continue to stick it!

STEP 2

Go for your goal

What to do : Take a small risks each day, so you learn how to bounce back from a mistake and how good it feels to stick with something and succeed.

Why : Many people give up their goals after they have setback. But you can learn how to recover it by practicing the risks below. isn't weird? no.. but Yes, you might mess up or even feel embarrased, but when you eventually get it right, u'll realize obstacles don't have to become roadblocks.

Raise your hand in class at least once a day. even if you're unsure of the answer.
Ask a question whenever you're confused. and Face the fear of looking stupid!
Volunteer to lead a club after class. it'll let you making a big decisions.

Bottom line : as long as you keep voicing your opinions, (even if you are harsh in words or theres someone look unhappy with ur opinions , u need to trust ur belief and of course accept the constuructive criticsm from others.. and try to explain it as well to them. ), asking for help, and taking on responsibilities, you'll continue to gain the know-how and confidence to get by obstacles, AND make any dream a reality.

so.. have a nice life, people!

this is dedicated for my lil sister, Shifa. who always ask me how to achieve her goal and always thinks that her dream is only a dream and couldn't be a reality. Try it !

Honestly, I have not achieve my goal yet. but I'll always focus on it !

Happy Fasting

2007-09-12T03:11:00.000+08:00

The photoshoot went Ok. They said that I did a great job yesterday *thanks thanks*.. I was a bit nervous at first. because it's not like as usual. but I was happy with my performance though. and oh.. the pics were taken by Deniek G Sukarya. He's one of the Indonesian senior Photographer. *proud*.. just google him ; )

When I was attending Ridi's wedding, I met some old friends from highschool. first fella was Ipen and his new gf. He looks fat than a years ago. then I met Cibe who told me that I am skinnier and look more young and *blush* prettier. Hehehe.. *thank u*. And other friends like Gobel, Tiwi, Ata, Andi, and Putri.

and yeah, finally I chosed to wear my white Kebaya ..not the purple or black ones. : )

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Hey.. Ramadhan is coming. Happy fasting, people! sorry for the mistakes I've done to you. I hope this holy month bring us to the holiness. May Allah SWT blesses us .. amien.

Btw, temen-temen gw udah merencanakan sejuta acara buat Ramadhan kali ini. Mulai Buka Puasa bersama, SOR (Sahur On the Road), dan bikin talkshow2 gitu. ckckck.. liat nanti apakah dapat terlaksana atau tidak. Tapi yang pentingkan udah ada niat. hehe

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Tommorow :

Got 10.50 am class.. "Hukum pengangkutan"..
Meet Marini in the library at 12.00 pm.
Finishing the book Kak Ala lent me "Don't be sad" (Cara Hidup Positif Tanpa Pernah Sedih & Frustasi) by DR. 'Aid bin Abdullah al-Qarni,MA.
Host Reality Show audition at 3 pm.
Meet Fikri and go watch at noon.

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This is for some people

If you judge people, then you have no time to love them.

gotta sleep. tata ; P

2007-09-10T14:28:00.000+08:00

I've been so tired past few days. I know there is someone or third party who wants ruin my happiness. I know there is someone who stands behind all of this.

Who the hell are YOU?

and for you Asshole, If you dont understand what I mean.. just LEARN How to understand it. Occay! and drill into ur gf's brain that I'm not a lunatic person like her. I hv No plan to be like her . NOT EVER. and I DO NOT EVEN KNOW YOU. just take care your own life.

and for YOU, I know I was wrong that I thought u were the one who sending me those nasty messages in my tagboard, but that doesnt mean YOU could accusing me of things.

pantes aja Fikri ga mau anggep lo jadi sepupu lo. lo kasar gitu jadi cewe. yukss...

bye bye..

I'm gonna take it away

2007-09-09T01:52:00.000+08:00

My cousin, Ridi. Get married tomorrow.. oh God.. Time flew so fast. He's my good cousin,even sometimes He makes me feel annoyed with his not-so-funny-jokes. hehe. I hope u'll be a good husband for Karin, and Allah SAW always protects you from bad things, Selamat menempuh hidup baru brotha! I always pray for you.

I still haven't make a choice between wearing the purple Kebaya or the black ones for tomorrow. Which one ya? hmm.. bingung.

***

The same girl 'invites' me into HER fighting.. She left a rude message in my tagboard. at first I stared her words. I kept quiet. I didn't do anything to her. What did I do towards her? . secondly I wanted to left some message in her tagboard.

but I heard something from my heart. " No Tasya.. don't do that, don't ruin your precious time again, u've had enough of her. u didn't something wrong to her. she's really insane. "

then I followed not to reply her silly message.

Suddenly, My eyes went blurry.. the voice came again " no Tasya.. why are u crying? dun cry for someone who's not that important in your life or maybe not important at all, you have better things to attend to. just forget about her."

I stand up. closer to the mirror. I saw my own face..

then I smiled.

I laughed.

I smiled again.

If you still won't forgive me

If you still being rude to me

If you still being arrogant to me

that's YOUR problem.

Don't envy me. because I have everything you wanted. I have everything you need.

You cannot be me. I don't wanna be you .

She's checking on me still. She find out everything about me. I know. She wants to be me.

dedicated to : you-know-who-you-are

"I don't know what happened to you. why did you scolded me and called me a bitch? Am I hurting you? Did I do something bad to yourself? oh please.. BE MATURE! "

you are so unpredictable. and it's so ridiculous.

untitle

2007-09-06T00:17:00.001+08:00

I watched The Invasion.. that's good.. I love t0 see Nicole Kidman's acting in this movie. and oh.. I've been watching Turistas.. that's totally worst movie I've ever seen. : (

Yesterday, me, Fikri, Gena, Rifky, Dida, Marini, Rizal, and Shinji went to Dufan.. we started playing at 12 pm, and over at 6 pm.. We were playing Kicir-kicir (Only Fikri, Me, Gena, and Marini, else .. freaked out), Istana boneka, Tornado ( it sooo damn 'funny'.. yeah.. u read that right.. 'F.u.n.n.y').., Niagara, Rumah miring, Halilintar, Ontang-anting, and the last Arung jeram.

Abis dari Dufan kita ber-7 ( kurang Marini and Rizal balik duluan karena ada keperluan mendadak) had dinner at Le Bridge Ancol.. pinggir pantai gitu. Romantis sekaliii... hehe.. trus ngobrol-ngobrol dan melacur (melakukan curhat-red) ngopi2, dll.. akhirnya kita semua sepakat buat melakukan suatu rencana perjalanan liburan kembali after puasa, kita berencana ke Pulau Seribu .. sekarang lagi pada tahap pengumpulan uang dan pencarian Informasi. And I elected to be the leader of the trip. Mereka minta gw buat cari harga Cottage se-murah-murah mungkin dengan akses yang se-hemat-hemat mungkin juga ( maklum, kantong Mahasiswa) hehe.. mungkin member liburan kali ini akan lebih meningkat.. mungkin ditambah sama Zie and Ginting.. Anyone wanna join us? just call me.. u got my number,right?

hmm.. I like to read Rendy WTP's blog.. he's my bestrfriend since when I was in highschool.. each time he calls me .. He never forget to say this sentence to me " Tasya, find me some girl to be my angel, please?" hehe.. (sorry pe, gw berlebihan).. ya abis.. ni orang setiap nelfon gw ngga pernah ketinggalan buat minta dicariin pacar sama gw as if gw tuh kayak Mami-mami yang tukang nyomblangin orang.. mungkin bukan si WTP ini aja yang sering minta cariin pasangan sama gw.. tapi ada juga si Shinji yang minta dicariin cowo mulu sama gw.. apa dimata mereka gw tampak seperti Mami-mami yang banyak menyetok laki2 tampan atau wanita-wanita cantik nan ayu? AM I? .. hehe.. tapi ngga papa sih.. Basically, I'm more happy to see my friends look happy.. gw seneng bisa buat mereka seneng juga. Pernah terlintas dalam pikiran gw apa ni anak dua ( Shinji dan WTP-red) gw jodohin aja kali ya?.. ('' Pe, lo pasti ngangguk-ngangguk kegirangan deh..") kayaknya mereka cocok deh.. Si WTP typical cowo yang kurang pede kalo ngedeketin cewe * I guess* .. gw udah berkali-kali bilang ke dia kalo mau deketin cewe tuh harus menerapkan prinsip layang-layang.. tarik ulur-tarik ulur.. jangan jadi cowo terlalu agresif atau malah terlalu lama majunya yang kedua-duanya bisa menyebabkan kebosanan tingkat tinggi pada cewenya.. step by step aja dulu..nah si Shinji tuh cewe yang ngga macem-macem.. dia menerima cowo ada apanya..eh salah.. maksud gw apa adanya.. dia cuma butuh cowo yang bener-bener ngertiin dia.. itu aja.. gampangkan..

Sekarang kalo gw pikir satu-satunya halangan buat ngedeketin ni anak dua cuma satu.. yaitu.. rumah mereka tuh dari ujung ke ujung. si WTP tinggal di Kramat nah si Shinji tinggal di Pondok kopi.. seinget gw WTP pernah bilang kalo rumahnya jauh dia jadi males ngedeketinnya ( seinget gw lho pe..) ..nah pegimane dong jadinya? lah?! kenapa jadi gw yang pusing.hehe

BTW, back to the story line .." I like to read WTP's blog".. setiap gw baca tulisannya nih anak ngga tau kenapa bisa buat gw ketawa-ketawa sambil senyum-senyum ngga keruan.. lucu aja. Ya ngga salah sih kalo dia kepilih buat nulis salah satu artikel di Majalah kawula muda yang gaul-gaul and funky itu.. HAI. lo semua pada tau kan? Setiap tulisannya mengalir gitu aja .. ngga ada yang dibuat-buat atau dipaksain .. jayusnya juga enak aja.. dan pas aja di tiap struktur kalimatnya ( apaan sih gw).. ya begitulah.. buat WTP.. tingkatin terus kejayusan dan kebodohanmu dalam menulis.. huahaha.. btw,lo pasti geer berat gw ngomongin lo.. jangan nyimeng mulu lu.. Insyaf,,HUAHAHAHAHA

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Gw percaya ada yang namanya Pro dan Kontra..and it happens to me right now.. some people called me stupid or whatever He/She wants to call me because I wrote the entries of Incidents of Indonesian people in Malaysia in MY blog. and they both are Malaysian. Mereka marah karena gw menganggap semua orang Malaysia itu sama.. sekarang satu yang gw minta.. tolong buktikan kalau emang tidak semua orang Malaysia bertindak seperti itu, karena setahun terakhir ini Malaysia cuma bisa ngasih bukti kalo kekerasan jadi salah satu kebiasaan buruk mereka..tapi ngga sedikit temen-temen gw yang memberikan kata sepakat buat gw.. mereka setuju sama pendapat gw.. dan banyak juga milis-milis yang berpendapat sama apa yang gw rasain.

Jangan jelek-jelekin Indonesia.. Gw ngga suka banget. U need us.. and we need u. Siapa yang bilang Indonesia negara yang ngga punya apa-apa? mungkin kalo mau di itung-itung harta kekayaannya.. Indonesia bisa jadi salah satu negara terkaya di dunia. Indonesia kaya akan keindahan alamnya, keragaman pulau-pulanya, keragaman budayanya, keragaman ras nya, keagaman bahasa, dan adat istiadatnya.. kayak lagu kita satu ini..

" Dari Sabang sampai Merauke berjajar pulau-pulau.. sambung menyambung menjadi satu. .itulah Indonesia.. "

Indonesia walaupun berbeda-beda tapi tetap satu jua ( Bhineka Tunggal Ika).. Lo ngga akan bisa dapetin keragaman dan keunikan Indonesia di tempat manapun.. cuma ada satu di Indonesia.. lo ngga bisa nyari makanan Padang, sambel terasi, pete, jengkol, baju-baju adat yang unik2, rumah adat yang memukau, atau pesona keindahan alam pulau Sumatra, Kalimantan, Sulawesi, Jawa, Maluku, Papua, dllnya dimanapun juga.. cuma ada di Indonesia tercinta. Dont u dare to deny that??!

if u r not happy with my entries.. just pretend I didn't write anything about it. this is MY blog. u have no right to scold or condemn me.. I don't even know you..except for constructive criticsm ( thnks for one of u, I appreciate it)..once again.. I was looking these cases from the other side.. unlike yours..I'm more happy if u can give other perception POLITELY towards me without emotional prejudice. thanks.

Bali I'm in love..

2007-09-02T13:04:00.000+08:00

This was my favourite and amazing holiday with my cousins.. Bali is beautiful island I've ever seen..

Ubud.. visiting my relatives.. hahahaha

Dreamland is the real land.. sooo lovely..!

Wonderful night with my cousins in Bali.. practicing my salsa dance.. : )

Ulun Danu Temple that located on the shore of Barak Lake

Beautiful Kintamani..

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A girl invites me to read her entries.. did she says that she won't forgive me? Why did she keep on visiting my blog ? I am Ok when she said she really doesn't care anymore about me or my existance.. Ok.. but I've done my part too.. I apologised to her from the bottom of my heart. sincerely!

Gw ngga bohong when I said sorry to her.. that's true when we've made peace in the first time to each other..and suddenly I went beserk for some reasons.. And u girl wanna know Why did I do that? because I believe with my own assumptions about what happened to me.. I found another evidences and it was so sickening me.. I didn't pretend nice to you when we forgived each other in the first place.. I thought that was the start to know and make a friend with you.. butpoems, the pics, and the entries of ur blog, and anything I found that related to all.. I've made up my mind.. that u lied to me as u said u never have special feelings to Fikri, ur OWN relative !..thats enough to explaining all..yet, Fikri told me what happening with u guys when u were in Bukit tinggi.. in the first I wasn't sure with Fikri and I believed you.. tapi setelah gw telaah dan gw pikir secara logika secara logika wanita.. gw pelajari dan gw investigasi myself.. I've changed my mind..and I don't believe you..

And why suddenly I came to ur blog and say sorry to u.. just because I really wanna do that. Dan gw pikir Bulan suci Ramadhan udah mau dateng.. and I realized u r the one I hate so much most of the year.. it's so hurt me to hate u.. I don't wanna hate anybody.. esp. you.. dalam hati gw masih ada beban karena gw punya satu kebencian sama lo.. gw benci karena lo ngga pernah mengakui perasaan lo.. lo terus2an bilang kalo lo ngga pernah punya perasaan apa-apa.. gw tau lo boong setelah gw lihat semua bukti-bukti yang lo bikin sendiri.. I know u were manipulating ur own words as u were explaing it to me..

Gw konsekuen sama omongan gw setelah gw minta maaf sama lo kemaren ..gw ngga benci lo lagi.. gw udah lupain dan maafin semua perbuatan lo..

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Masalah Penganiayaan orang Indonesia di Malaysia TIDAK ada hubungannya dengan perasaan benci yang PERNAH (not anymore) gw rasain with some girl who is Malaysian.. not AT ALL. Semua opini gw tentang itu semua bener-bener my opinions without feeling angry with the girl I hated .. ngga berhubungan sama sekali.

Gw sebagai Indonesian jelas kecewa dan sakit sama perlakuan pihak Malaysia.. mungkin gw emang salah menganggap semua orang Malaysia berprilaku sama kayak mereka pihak-pihak yang tidak bertanggungjawab itu.. I'm sorry, Malaysian!.. I really am.. I just so angry when the first time I know that.. gw bener-bener kecewa..

Pertama gw pikir kenapa gw menganggap semua orang Malaysia itu sama.. karena secara awam gw pikir.. Seorang Polisi itu aparat keamanan di suatu negara.. Polisi itu seorang yang sangat dijunjung dan dihormati sama warganegaranya.. seorang yang mempunyai perlakuan yang disegani.. sekarang Kalau Polisi suatu negara aja udah berprilaku seperti itu bagaimana warganegaranya?? ada dua kemungkinan antara lebih baik atau lebih buruk.. tapi pemikiran gw lebih pada kemungkinan kedua.. this is my own values ya..

Gw ngeliat hubungan suatu negara dan warganegaranya sama istilah 'tubuh'.. tubuh kita terdiri dari tangan, mata, kuping, dll. Apabila tangan kita dicubit maka mata kita akan menangis dan apabila mata menangis maka tangan yang akan menghapusnya. Sekarang Polisi Malaysia itu merupakan bagian dari Malaysia dan seharusnya Malaysia (semuanya) berusaha membantu para polisi itu.. sekarang bagaimana caranya?? caranya pihak Malaysia (semuanya) meminta maaf sama Indonesia atas nama perlakuan yang udah dilakukan sama para polisi itu..dan diharapkan pihak Malaysia memberikan edukasi kepada warganegarnya supaya kejadian seperti itu ngga terulang.. bukannya warganegara Malaysia yang merasa tidak bersalah atas perlakuan para polisi itu lantas memisahkan diri dan merasa tersinggung karena seluruh Indonesian blame them all..sekarang tunjukin dong kalo tidak semua orang malaysia bersikap seperti itu.. kita Indonesian menunggu pembuktian itu sekarang.

I know people makes mistakes.. tapi apa melakukan kesalahan itu berkali-kali..kayak contoh kasus Ceriyati dan belum selesai kasus Ceriyati ada lagi kasus pembunuhan Indonesian maid di Selangor.. apa mereka tidak belajar dari kesalahan? masih terasa di telinga dua kasus tentang TKW itu.. ada lagi kasus baru masalah wasit karate kita.. apa salah gw menyimpulkan semua Malaysian seperti itu? once again.. this is my own opinion..

I don't hate Malaysia.. I hate their attitude treated bad Indonesians.. bukan karena gw pernah benci sama satu perempuan disana lantas gw benci sama semua orang Malaysia. I am not THAT shallow,girl! I have lots of friend in Malaysia.. dan gw berhubungan baik sama mereka.. seperti contoh.. gw tetep sms-an sama Nurdian yang tinggal di Selangor.. sama Hakim yang tinggal di Kuala Lumpur.. gw ngga benci mereka.. malah mereka mengakui kalo mereka (as Malaysian) salah atas perbuatan salah satu dari warganegara mereka.. I appreciate them.

If I hate Malaysia.. buat apa tahun depan gw berencana Hoilday disana sama Fikri and my bestfriends..?? ya kan.. ? menganggap Malaysia itu saudara dari Indonesia..nah itu yang gw sesalkan atas perlakuan salah satu warganegaranya yang menyakitkan mereka.. which is bukan salah satu dari warganergaranya tapi salah Empat dari warganegaranya.. apa semua orang melakukan kesalahan yang SAMA dan bertepatan pada saat yang bersamaan pula.. gw ngga abis pikir aja..

yah.. buat pihak yang merasa tersinggung with my entries.. I'm sorry.. I have my own opinions about it.. dun ever teach me what I should do or what I should be.. because I am not teach u what you should do or what you should be.. we have different values about anything.. yah.. contoh nya sebuah balok.. kalo kita lihat balok itu dari sisi samping maka kita liat sebuah segiempat..dan apabila kita lihat balok itu dari depan maka kita lihat suatu persegi panjang.. begitu juga kayak kita lihat suatu permasalahan.. contoh kasus ini.. gw ngeliat masalah ini dari sisi wargenegara Indonesia yang berulang-kali mendapatkan perlakuan ngga enak dari pihak Malaysia..

sekali lagi gw bukan so patriotisme atau apa.. please, be Mature people! dan gw percaya kemajuan suatu bangsa tergantung pada kaumnya.

C'mon Malay..

2007-08-31T11:24:00.000+08:00

hei..it's been a long time .. here's an update..

I'm in Jakarta now. and goodbye Samarinda.. *crying
My exam result wasn't as bad as i thought. but at least my Ipk stay in the first class. Alhamdulillah.
I got a Job from Vars agency.. for Photography Megazine. I dunno..I'll take it or not. still thinking for the sexy clothes,, *no..no..rolling eyes*
Sister Lenny got a cute and beautiful baby girl this morning.. Hmm.. I'll post the Pics later.
Planned to go Dufan today with Fikri..

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Duh, gw bener-bener ngga terima sama kelakuan orang-orang Malaysia itu.. Lo masih bisa liat kan entry gw yang mengenai kekerasan yang dilakukan sama orang-orang Malaysia towards TKW Indonesia di bawah.

Belum selesai amarah di kepala gw, tiba-tiba udah ada masalah *Again and again* yang dibuat mereka. Wasit karate INTERNASIONAL asal Indonesia David Peter Luther Kolopita DITUDUH sebagai imigran gelap di Malaysia oleh 4 orang polisi Malaysia.. sekarang gini aja deh... logically.. kayaknya aneh aja deh seorang wasit yang akan memimpin suatu pertandingan di Negara orang ngga ngurus surat-surat atau hal-hal penting yang berkaitan dengan Imigrasinya sebelum berangkat.. Apa kabar sama Dubes Indonesia yang ada di Malaysia? masa' pak Dubes ngga tau kalo mau ada Kejuaraan Karate yang bakal kedatangan wasit dari Indonesia.. Ngga mungkin aja deh kayaknya.. dan KALAUPUN emang wasit kita itu Imigran gelap apa pantes 4 orang Polisi itu lansung menghajar,menganiaya, ataupun mukulin sampe babak belur gitu.. Oh...C'mon.. be mature, people (esp. Malaysian) !.. Kan tuan-tuan polisi bisa langsung membawa saudara kami itu ke Kantor polisi tanpa melakukan kekerasan kayak gitu.. A.T.T.I.T.U.D.E please!

Cerita yang gw denger .. Jadi Pas Wasit karate kita keluar ari mobil tiba-tiba langsung ada 4 Polisi nyergap dia dengan berpakaian preman?? jelas! si wasit nanya siapa mereka dan mereka bilang kalo mereka itu polisi dan kalopun 4 polisi itu bilang mereka polisi Mana ID Polisinya? tapi mereka tuan-tuan polisi ngga bersedia negeluarin ID nya.. ya jelas aja lah tu Wasit kabur.. takutnya kan preman beneran.. dan SETELAH banyak warga yang ngeliat kejadian pukul-memukul yang dilakukan sama "Polisi-polisi" itu.. BARU tuan-tuan polisi itu ngeluarin ID mereka.. hey.. Stupidity doesn't exist, Mr! nah.. kalo udah gitu gimana coba? LOL!

Dan ternyata berita pemukulan ini ngga dimuat di Harian-harian Malaysia..tapi ada SATU yang dimuat di harian lokal kecil, dan itupun HANYA kolom yang amat sangat kesicl dipojokan koran ( gambar samping-red).. Yah.. kalo di koran Indonesia kayak iklan buat penurun berat badan deh..

gw ngga ngerti kenapa begitu.. seharusnya berita itu dimuat di harian mereka, supaya mereka mulai sekarang bisa jaga sikap dan kelakuan kasar mereka sama orang Indonesia.. ngga Indonesia aja deh tapi juga sama warga asing yang stay disana. Oh iya lo liat ada tulisan "Malaysia deserves better".. I thought that wasn't right.. be better " Malaysia deserves to be slapped".. no offend.. hehe

oh iya setau gw Malaysia punya Quota seperti ini :

The Internal Security Act 1960 (ISA) is a preventive detention law in force in Malaysia. Any person may be detained by the police for up to 60 days without trial for an act which allegedly threatens the security of the country or any part thereof. After 60 days, one may be further detained for a period of two years each, to be approved by the Minister of Home Affairs, thus permitting indefinite detention without trial. In 1989, the powers of the Minister under the legislation was made immune to judicial review by virtue of amendments to the Act, only allowing the courts to examine and review technical matters pertaining to the ISA arrest.

Dan lagi.. gw ngga suka kalo Malaysia menyebut Indonesia dengan sebutan Indon.. yang artinya kuli/budak.. ckckck.. bener2 ngajak perang nih.. tadi malem gw ngebahas masalah ini sama Om Hari ..dan kita berdua sepakat buat ngajak perang aja sama Malaysia.. lama-lama ngelunjak kayaknya.. hehe..

Entry di atas cuma isi dari kekecewaan hati gw sebagai bangsa Indonesia.. bukannya gw ngerrasa sok patriotisme atau apa.. taoi ini nyakitin hati Bangsa Indonesia. Malaysia yang udah kita (Indonesia) anggep kayak saudara serumpun dan tetangga masih tega-teganya kayak gitu.. fiuhh.. Stop it already, please! make a deeply regret is a better way..

TKW dan penganiayaan di Malaysia

2007-08-18T23:46:00.000+08:00

Gw kecewa banget sama orang-orang Malaysia yang jadi majikan para TKW (Tenaga Kerja Wanita) asal Indonesia. Semakin lama orang-orang Malaysia itu ngga ngormatin para TKW kita. Mereka seenaknya mukul, mencabik, bahkan ada beberapa yang tega nyiram air panas ke badannya para TKW itu. Gila.. gw bener-bener ngga rela. jahat banget mereka! Lo udah tau kan masalah seputar Ceriyati yang akhirnya nekat loncat apartment gara-gara ngga kuat sama kelakuan majikannya yang selama empat setengah bulan mukulin dan nyiksa Ceriyati. Lo semua udah liat kan wajah Ceriyati yang bengkak-bengkak dan hancur itu? Gila..Apa mereka semua ngga punya perasaan ya? . belum selesai masalah Ceriyati dateng lagi masalah yang sama. Tadi gw denger berita di Metro Tv ada seorang TKW asal Indonesia namanya Kurniasih *again* ditemukan meninggal di Selangor, Malaysia. Gila.. kali ini nyawa yang jadi taruhannya. Sumpah.. ngga abis pikir gw ada orang yang setega itu.. Apa sih yang buat mereka bisa ngelakuin seenak jidatnya sama orang lain? Apa mereka ngga tahu kalo TKW itu cari kerja jauh-jauh kesana untuk membiayai Anak-anaknya di kampung? Apa mereka ngga pernah tahu adanya Hak Asasi Manusia? Hak untuk hidup yang layak? Apa mereka ngga pernah diajarin gimana memperlakukan manusia? inget ya.. TKW itu juga manusia, tuan-tuan dan puan-puan! Kenapa mereka ngga suruh MONYET aja jadi pembantu mereka?? kan bisa disiksa seenaknya.

*Petugas nyelamatin Ceriyati yang mau kabur lewat jendela*

Gw masih ngga habis fikir.. Orang MALAYSIA yang katanya religius dan taat beragama bisa ngelakuin hal sekejam itu.. Mana ?? buktiin dong kalo emang gitu?? Tanggung jawab dong sama yang udah kalian perbuat! Jangan keluar dari tanggung jawab gitu aja hanya dengan uang jaminan. Uang jaminan yang anda-anda kasih itu TIDAK sebanding sama apa yang anda-anda lakuin ! Hormatin dong para TKW Indonesia yang lagi cari mata pencaharian disana? Mentang-mentang mereka pembantu dan anda merasa udah nge-gaji mereka BUKAN berarti anda-anda bisa seenaknya sama mereka. Kita Indonesian baru aja ngerayain Hari Kemerdekaan.. dan gw harap mulai sekarang ngga ada lagi perlakuan kasar Malaysian yang mengakibatkan banyak kerugian sama Indonesian. TKW-TKW itu sodara kita juga sebagai orang Indonesia. Dan gw harap buat kepolisian Malaysia dan Kedubes RI di Malaysia bisa meng-handle Kasus ini as soon as possible.. jangan diulur-ulur lagi. Buat para majikan-yang-kasar-dan-tidak-punya-hati Kalian harus Responsible ur own actions . Don't hide! yang berbuat harus bertanggungjawab.

Please stop kekerasan dan penganiayaan buat TKI di seluruh negara!

Merdeka...!

2007-08-18T12:06:00.000+08:00

* Kota Tenggarong malam hari.. bagus yah..*

just got back from Tenggarong. Visiting my relatives.. and thank u Abah and Umi for the Angpao ..that was my favourite part ;D.. *grin* and my Grandma asked me to sleep overnight in her place. Hmm.. Next Monday maybe..

I was in Abang's room actually, while my cousin Aang was repairing my Laptop. I don't know exactly why suddenly my laptop went beserk. I thought I've been sayang-sayang you as well kan. Huh,, and my cousin said it needs to be re-install! oh God.. malesnya.. ngulang and re-program semuanya. that'll need an extra time for me. so I decided to passed it to my cousin. and it seems that it has been fixed tuh kayaknya. syukurlah..

oh ya. Happy Independence day to all Indonesian. I remember celebrating the Independence day when I was child. Joining every games was a must ritual that we had to get involved. Makan kerupuk, Lomba balap karung, lomba kelereng, lomba tarik tambang, even Panjat pinang. that was fun. But since I grown up I've never participating any games anymore. Not young anymore (halah! berasa paling tua..).. ya ngga juga sih.. cuma malu aja tiba-tiba gw ikutan lomba2 lagi.. kalo lawannya seumuran gw sih.. gw Hayok aja! hehe. Btw, Hope our country and the World would be better tomorrow. no more poverty. no more hungers. no more discriminations. no more wars. and no more corruptors.

Next thursday I come back to Jakarta. hiks hiks hiks.. sedih deh berpisah lagi sama keluarga disini. Back to my activities. btw, I miss my campus and my friends. can't wait to see them. : )

hey.. my Dad just summoned me. so.. I gotta go.. bye..

Sekali merdeka tetap Merdeka !

si Mawar dan cinta pertama-nya

2007-08-15T17:04:00.000+08:00

hey .. which one u will choose.. First love or Last love?

oh... if u ask me to choose .. obviously, I choose the last one. my last love!

ya iyalah.. ngga mungkin kan lo terus terkubur dalam tragedi cinta pertama lo, dan lo ngga mau untuk mencoba mencari cinta kedua lo, ketiga ,atau keempat, dsb. dan ngga mungkin juga kan lo terus termangu sama foto-foto lo sama cinta pertama lo posing so close to each other ,lo terus2an inget sama kata-kata si cinta pertama lo itu, merenung dan menuangkan perasaan 'ngarep+sedih+menyesal' lo ke dalam sebuah puisi ( I've met this one.. I just read her poems that dedicated to her first love).. *maenMataSamaTessa* ..hehe

ya ..gw tau sebagian dari lo-lo pade (caelah...) ada yang ngga setuju sama penilaian gw mengenai kategori di atas.. dan sebagian dari lo sangat menganggap pentingnya arti 'cinta pertama'.. gini loh..*clear throat* menurut gw cinta pertama itu emang penting , ya dari cinta pertama itu kita bisa tau banyak hal yang sebelumnya kita ngga pernah ngerasain .. mulai dari sms sayang-sayangan, mau bobo ada yang ngucapin "met bobo sayang.." ,mau makan ada yg ingetin "jangan lupa makan ya sayang..", and the other sweet things yang bisa bikin kita ingeeet terus sama cinta pertama kita. tapi non.. sebenernya itu bisa lo dapet ngga hanya sama cinta pertama lo ko.. there's no wrong to try with another guy kan.. dun get me wrong!

seperti satu contoh kasus (yah..bisa dibilang kasus lah..) sahabat gw T***a (bisa dibilang sahabat kan Te*) hehe.. sengaja gw sensor namanya ..takut ada beberapa pihak yang memanfaatkannya untuk jadi ajang mengadu-domba (apaan sih gw..??!!) hehe

jadi Mantannya cowonya T***a itu masih sering bikin2 puisi gitu ke cowonya T***a ini..yah.. sebut saja namanya Mawar. hehe.. jadi si Mawar ini selalu bikin puisi yang gw dan T***a yakini kalo puisi itu didedikasiin ke cowonya T***a. ya gw ngga nyalahin kalo sahabat gw itu jadi gimana gitu perasaannya. nah coba deh lo war,..(mawar-red) ngerasain apa yg T***a rasain. lo punya cowo dan ternyata mantan cowo lo itu masih aja ngarep2in cowo lo, masih bikin puisi ke cowo lo, kan ngenes banget kan! kalo udah gitu mau marah sama siapa coba??! belom lagi nanti lo bakal negative thinking ke cewe itu yang sebenernya lo ngga ada masalah apa2 sama dia, dan masalah itu terjadi setelah cewe itu buat puisi2 cinta yang diumumin melalu Blognya supaya Friends list nya itu baca, iya kalo elo ngga jadi friend listnya..nah kalo Iya..pegimane coba??! kalo ternyata lo ngga sengaja baca2 blog nya..gimana coba? gimana? huh..sekali lagi buat Mawar. put ur self in her shoes coba.. rasakan perasaan cewenya- cinta pertama lo itu. sungguh menyakitkan nona. (hehe.. i know. I exageratted. )hehe.

yah intinya bagi sekelompok orang yang mengagung2kan cinta pertamanya, itu bukan jadi masalah as far as lo bisa mengagung2kan cinta lo itu dengan tidak mengganggu beberapa pihak.Apalagi mengganggu berlangsungnya hubungan Cinta pertama lo itu sama cewenya, Kan lo bisa (khusus buat Mawar ) nulis2 puisi nya di Buku diary lo yang hanya lo aja yang bisa baca. Dan menurut gw ya (sblmnya sorry) ..justru dengan lo nulis2 di Blog lo.. menunjukkan bahwa lo udah menyesal , sedih , mengharap dia (cinta pertama lo-red) jadi milik lo lgi.. malah gw bilang.. YOU're embarrassing urself, baby..apalagi lo putusnya gara-gara kesalahan lo..

dan lagi kenapa gw lebih milih cinta terakhir gw?? alasannya jelas kok.. karena cinta terakhir gw yang bakal nemenin gw sampe akhir hayat.. sedangkan cinta pertama menurut gw cuma cinta yang mengantarkan seseorang kepada cinta terakhirnya (halah! apaan sih gw..) yah..pokonya begitu lah..

intinya,, cinta terakhir lebih penting ketimbang cinta pertama.

oh ya kenapa ya ngga ada penyanyi yang bikin lagu dengan judul "cinta terakhirku" or "cintaku yang terakhir" or "terakhirnya cintaku" ( walah.. ngaco bgt gw.. gubrak!)

yang gw tau cuma ada lagu judulnya "cinta pertama (sunny)"-nya Bunga c. Lestari, "First love"-nya *lupa gw*.

yang mengkisahkan cinta terakhir yang gw tau cuma lagunya Romeo yang "Bunga terakhir" .. ya kan ya kan??

*masih mikir lagu apa lagi ya*

Ada yang tau lagi , anyone?

eh Quizzes lagi... Hehehe

2007-08-12T16:02:00.000+08:00

You Are 20% Spoiled

You are definitely not spoiled. You've worked hard for what you have.
Down to earth and grounded, you don't need a lot to make you happy.

Are You Spoiled?

Your Driving Is is: 82% Male, 18% Female

According to studies, you drive like a typical male.
You're reckless, aggressive, and see driving as a game.
And while you like to live on the edge a little, you still know how to drive safely.

Do You Drive Like a Guy or a Girl?

You Are More Like Angelina Jolie

Bad girl with a heart of gold.
You are smart, sexy, and strong willed.
You aren't against stealing another girl's man...
If he's better off with you!

Are You More Like Jennifer or Angelina?

Quizzes Again??? : P

2007-08-12T15:40:00.000+08:00

What Your Purple Outfit Means

You're urban and classy, but you never dress boring.
You tend to prefer high quality items that are a little funky.
Upscale and expressive, people tend to admire you from afar.

Designer match: Nicole Miller

Signature accessory: A pretty shawl

How Your Favorite Outfit Tells What Kind of Girl You Are

Your Relationship is Still Building Strength

You're relationship is fairly strong, but you're still working on making things solid.
Make sure you're both treating each other with kindness and respect, even when things aren't going well.

How Strong Is Your Relationship With Your Guy?

You are a No Drama Mama!

No need for drama, you just chill out and don't let things bother you
You've got a peaceful, zen-like attitude... even when things get crazy
You're a pleasure to be around, and you have lots of friends to show for it
You don't need to be the center of attention, you're happy enough as is!

How Much of a Drama Queen Are You?

Your Guy Is About As Pretty As You!

While your guy isn't straight out of GQ, he's a bit of a pretty boy.
And he enjoys an indie movie from time to time... so what?
You've got the best of both worlds, girlfriend - a manly guy who understands women.
Just make sure that he spends more on your dates than the salon.

Is He Prettier Than You?

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!
Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.
If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.
You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

Quizzes ..Quizzes..

2007-08-12T15:33:00.001+08:00

You Were An Angel This Year

You Were 15% Naughty, 85% Nice

You know you've been a super good girl this year
So good, that you may have missed out a little...
Don't worry, Santa will make it up to you!

Were You a Naughty Girl or Nice Girl this Year?

What Guys Think of Your Ponytail...

Girlish, free spirited, low maintenance.
The kind of girl he can take camping ... for fire building and romance :-)

What Do Guys Think Of Your Hair?

Popular Kid

In high school, everyone knew your name - even if you didn't know theirs.

In fact, your still skating by on your looks and charm. Nothing wrong with that!

Who Were You In High School?

You Are a Coy Flirt

You may not seem like you're flirting, but you know exactly what you're doing.
You draw people in, very calculatingly, without them even knowing.
Subtle and understated, you know how to best leverage your sex appeal.
A sexy enigma, you easily become an object of obsession.

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

Hati- Hati lhoooo !!

2007-08-11T18:38:00.000+08:00

Hei, Hati-hati sama peredaran Kosmetik palsu yang belakangan lagi marak banget. Tadi gw nonton di Cerita sore tentang pembuatan kosmetik palsu itu.. ckckck.. serem banget, mereka ngga tahu takaran obatnya berapa, sebagian dari mereka bilang cuma ngira-ngira aja masukin obatnya *shudder*.. serem banget! dan mereka bisa buat sama kayak yang asli. Dari kemasannya aja tuh udah ngga steril, mereka ambil dari pemulung yang ngumpulin botol-botol bekas dari sampah orang.. serem banget yah..

Gw punya Tips gimana kita ngebedain antara kosmetik yang asli dan yang palsu :

Lihat dari plastik pembungkusnya. Kalo kosmetik yang asli, plastik kemasannya itu jadi satu sama plastik mereknya, ngga terpisah seperti kosmetik palsu. karena mereka hanya membungkus dari keher botolnya aja, ngga dari badan botolnya.

Lihat dari warana kemasannya. Kalo Kosmetik yang palsu biasanya warna kemasannya udah memudar, ngga seperti warna aslinya yang masih jelas. Pudar itu karena kemasan kosmetik itu udah pernah di pakai.

Cium aroma kosmetiknya. Kan biasanya kita udah tahu wangi kosmetik yang sering kita pakai, kalo emang agak-agak mencurigakan wanginya.. mending ngga usah dipake. tapi dibuang aja ke tong sampah. beli yang baru.. (jangan kayak orang susah deh..) hehehe

Beli kosmetik di toko-toko resmi aja.. yang terpercaya, jangan beli di emper-emperan yang sering dijual di pinggiran Blok M, melawai, atau di ITC.

Kalo abis dipake.. kemasannya jangan lupa di ancurin.. supaya tu orang-orang ngga berperasaan ngga bisa pake dan ngejual yang palsu lagi.

yah.. mudah2an tips gw itu bisa jadi manfaat sedikit lah.. ok ok.. ati2 ya.. walaupun mereka yang mengimg-imingi dengan harga yang lebih murah dari yang asli.. tetep jangan dibeli. soalnya kalo udah rusak..kita bisa ngeluarin biaya yang jauhhh lebih mahal ke dokter kulitnya. Ok..

Fikri said : " Ayang, u r the most beautiful girl" uhuk..uhuk... cought :D

2007-08-09T19:55:00.000+08:00

dear diary,
huehehe..

hello! all day long stayed in the home.. watching,eating,sms-ing,blogging,browsing, and else..
my Bf sms-ed me.. he said the 'gombality' things..

" ayang cantik deh, badannya kayak gitar Spanyol, mirip kayak yang di telenovela-telenovela, rugi aku kalau punya anak ngga mirip sama ayang.."

when I was reading his message.. I can't stop to smile.. sooo sweeeettt.. *gubrak!* huehehe..
then I replied.

" Thank u ayang.. ayang juga handsome. I Love U "

FYI, kita berdua tuh sebenernya jarang bilang sama pasangan masing-masing kalo pasangan kita punya kelebihan. He's typical cowo yang rada geeran.. huehehe *peace baby peace*.. tapi seneng yah kalo pacar kita muji-muji kita.. rasanya tuh kita jadi kayak Cewe yang paling cantik sedunia. huehehe..

ini yang kesekian kalinya Fikri bilang kalo gw cewe paling cantik dari semuanya..hehe.. iya gw tau lo semua pasti bilang.. "alaaahh.. Gombal tuh Tas..!" ya I know that.. but i feel it's different when He says that things when his eyes staring into my eyes .. i feel.. fllllllllyyyyyyyingg..... pokonya gw selalu ngerasa kalo Fikri ngomong tentang gw apapun, gw selalu percaya.. (kalo yang bagus-bagus aja sih.. kalo masalah seputar kebiasaan buruk gw.. gw jelas ngga percaya) ...hehe

inget kan waktu gw pernah berantem sama salah satu cewe.. yang orang Malaysia itu lho.. kan gw tanya ke Fikri,

Me : " ayang kenapa sih waktu malam itu bela-belain ke warnet cuma untuk bales Message dia..?"

Fikri : " Ya aku cuma ngga enak aja sama dia.. kan kasian.."

Me : " Emang dia cantik banget ya yang ?"

Fikri : " hah! ya enggaklah.. sumpah dia biasa aja. kamu kan bisa lihat fotonya.. u are prettier than her. Cantikkan kamu kemana-mana, beneran yang..kamu The pretiest girl i've ever know"

Me : (sambil rada-rada geer gitu gw bilang) " ah ayang boong.. " :)

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Ga tau deh gw.. apa dia cuma gombal aja ngomong kayak gitu.. but at least I'm happy though! I believe him.. hehe

oh iya Fikri juga pernah bilang kalo lagunya James Blunt yang "You're Beautiful" tu.. lagu dia buat gw.. wooohooo... hehe

"you're beautiful. .You're beautiful.. You're beautiful. .It's true."

gudnite

Tata :P

my bestfriends

2007-08-08T14:39:00.000+08:00

these pictures were taken on 30 Aug 07.. waktu itu gw nginep di Rumahnya Marini.. abis itu ke rumahnya Gena.. maen-maen, ngobrol-ngobrol, makan bareng, tidur bareng. pokonya seru deh! dan tau ngga sih.. this is my first sleep together with them.. Gila.. temen gw si Gena yang badannya paling subur di antara kita-kita ternyata tuh paling penakut . Gedong a.k.a Gede Doang.. ckck.. masa tidur aja lampu harus dinyalain, she's screaming when I turned off the light..beda sama kita berdua ( Marini and I ) yang usually turn off the light when we're sleep. ngga bagus soalnya kalo tidur lampu dinyalain (kata nyokap gw begitu). udah gitu ni anak maunya tidurnya nyempil ditengah lagi .. kayak serasa yang paling kecil aja badannya *peace out babe* ... hehe.. tapi ngga papa kok.. gw seneng udah dijadiin guling buat lo *wink*.. Love u all babe..

The models.. huahaha..

in the car.. after salooning ria..

from botom : Marini-Gena-me

mmuuaahhh...

about one week ago.. we (marince, Gena, and me) were hanging out together. maybe it would be our last moment together before our beloved bestfriend, Marin got married and become a wife. Hohoho.. ngga nyangka ya secepat itu sahabat gw nikah. Hehe.. I'm happy for you babe.. I'm gonna miss those moments we had together. Gw harap ngga ada yang akan berubah walaupun sekarang lo udah jadi seorang istri, ya kan sayang?? kita bisa tetep jalan bareng, nonton bareng, salon bareng, dll. I hope so..

Tasya sayang temen-temen Tasya..

tata.. :P

NO SMOKING

2007-08-07T21:59:00.000+08:00

I choose the first one too, Tes!

Basic rule people.. NO SMOKING is allowed!

like many teens today, they're smoking as if they could earn money by themself.. duit dari bokap lo aja udah lo bakar-bakar.. huahaha.. not to be hypocryte.. but I've been trying smoking when I was 18. tapi ngga sering-sering banget. just want to know aja.. hehe

people arounds me do the same like others.. smoking till die. I was so sick when someone smoke next to me. I dislike with the smell.. asapnya itu loh.. membahayakan sekali.. tapi sekali-sekali boleh lah.. huahaha.. kidding lah.. but there is no advantage of smoking. Believe me !!

the picture above I grabbed from one of my friend's pictures in friendster.. in fact.. she's NOT a smoker. I know for sure. maybe she's only trying to inform by her profile that the result of smoking is DIE. good job, Tessa ! :P

and How about you guys, which one you will choose??

welcome to Borneo. I'm here...

2007-08-07T15:38:00.000+08:00

hey.. I just arrived in Samarinda.. got a morning flight. feel a bit exhausted now.. my parents picked me up in Airport. hmm.. it's been a long time I never come back since last year because.. ya.. busy with my things.. blablabla...

yesterday my senior in campus phoned me and he offered me a job to be Host in Reunion of Dirjen Pajak gitu.. and Rp 500.000 ONLY for 3 Hours.. unfortunately I couldn't make it because I have to go.. bukan rejeki lah.. n oh ya.. Mba Lisa passed me a job too. She'll pay me Rp 2.000.000 for 1 Month.. *hiks..hiks * tapi gw ngga bisa juga.. karena gw kan harus balik ke Samarinda.. yah.. bukan rejeki lagi namanya. Ya kan?? seberapapun besar uangnya tapi ketemu keluarga is the most important than anything, right??

BTW, I miss Fikri.. can't wait to see him soon. We're planning to had a holiday together after we come back from 'kampung masing-masing' .. rencananya mau ke Dufan rame-rame.. gw pengen naik Tornado ni.. abis semua temen gw udah pada nyobain, tinggal gw aja ni yang belum. huehehe..

kemaren gw ikutan Rally sama keluarganya om Hari.. he asked me to be his co-driver .. lumayan cape.. karena dari ujung ke ujung. Start awal di Sunter muter ke daerah Pasar induk,Tendean,Kramat,sampai akhirnya finish di Satria mandala. cape juga sih.. tapi gw balik duluan, gw pengen packing buat ke Samarinda soalnya. Katanya sih kalo menang dapet 20 juta.. tapi saingannya ada 300 mobil. ya thats mean.. if you are lucky then you are the winner.

honestly, lot of things I want to say.. but.. I feel tired. gotta sleep for a while.

tata :p

2007-08-02T12:51:00.000+08:00

Being a Model is fun , right??

kangen ayang

2007-08-01T21:03:00.001+08:00

I MISS HIM

KANGEN AYANG

Foto II

2007-07-25T16:42:00.000+08:00

ini foto-foto di Puncak yang waktu itu belum sempet gw masukin.. nih dia.. hehe ..

Me .. ride the hourse..
otw home to Villa..

My cousin.. " kak Tasya.. tolong adit dong ni.."

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Ngga kerasa 2 minggu lagi gw udah balik ke Samarinda.. Can't wait.. mau bawain apa ya buat keluarga sana??! belum tau ni.. mungkin gw bawain Burger King aja ya..disana kan belum buka tuh..huehehe..

Kemaren gw ketemuan sama temen2 SMA gw.. Tammy sama Tya.. Tya baru dateng dari Bandung. Kan jarang-jarang tuh Tya kesini, Nah kesempatan gw buat berkangen-kangenan deh. Tapi gw ngga bisa lama-lama soalnya udah ada janji juga.. namanya liburan jadi janji dimana-mana. huahaha.. ngga deng! ya.. kita cuma punya waktu ketemu sekitar 3 jam-an lah.. yaaa... lumayan lah.. si Tya udah kurusan tuh, katanya sih udah turun 3 Kg, kalo Tammy masih kyk dulu.. yang jelas udah ngga gendut lagi waktu kayak di SMA.. ya kan Tam?? Kemaren gw buka-buka album foto waktu SMA. buseett.. gw montok banget dah! mantap! ya kan tam??! kita berdua tam.. hehe. Tapi sekarang gw sama Tammy udah turun drastis.. hehe.. tapi kata Fikri sih dia lebih suka waktu badan gw montok dulu.. I have fetish for a nice buttocks kata Fikri.. tapi dia bilang .. "ngga kok yang, kamu diapain aja cantik.. " *Blushing* =p

Kemaren-kemaren gw banyak pergi-pergi mulu.. namanya liburan.. trus baca-baca buku di Gramedia.. gw juga dibeliin Fikri buku. Sekarang perjanjiannya setiap tanggal jadian kita ( FYI, setiap tanggal 27 ) Fikri beliin 1 buku buat gw.. nanti sampe banyak,, kalo emang kita jodoh dan akhirnya punya keturunan .. gw mau bikin perpustakaan kecil gitu di rumah buat anak-anak gw dan ada 1 rak buku yang isinya buku-buku yang dulu di kumpulin semasa pacaran dulu sama papa nya.. huehehehe/... *smile sweetly* kan nanti gw bisa kasih tau ke anak-anak gw.. ''ni lho.. dulu bunda dikasih ayah buku setiap ngerayain tanggal jadian kita tiap bulannya..'' hahaha.. lucu banget ya kalo beneran begitu.. amien ya Allah..

unmood

2007-07-20T18:14:00.000+08:00

lagi di warnet Cipaganti nih, abis dari Bank Mandiri transfer duit buat bayar Airasia. Talking about Airasia, ya.. I'm on holiday now.. while Fikri going to Bukit Tinggi this last of July, I'm going to Samarinda to see my family.. miss them sooooo much..

My cousins Noni and Fara went to Bali.. *hiks hikss* I couldn't join with them for some reasons.. haha.. u knowlahh.. UUD ( ujung-ujungnya duit-red) hehe.. I couldn't make it when they suddenly asked me to going to Bali before I preparing the things,especially money.. huh.. dasar! tapi klo direncanain juga pasti bakal ngga jadi juga sih.. huehehe.. ya next time aja deh.. kalo masih ada kesempatan, masih ada umur. hehe

The exam result haven't out yet.. I'm still waiting for them.. hmm... I wish the result were good. amien..

kemaren-kemaren gw nonton mulu kerjaaanya sama Fikri.. terakhir nonton 3 hari untuk selamanya , yang maen si Nicholas Saputra sama Adnia wirasti.. hmm.. nice enough lah.. walaupun ceritanya sebenernya simple, bahkan bisa dibilang ngga ada permasalahan. yah lo nonton sendiri aja yah. ok ok ok

hmm.. i'm tired nih.. wanna go home as soon as possible..

gonna update soon.. bye bye

Puncak

2007-07-14T13:26:00.000+08:00

hey.. ini photo-photo waktu gw ke Puncak beberapa waktu lalu sama keluarga gw.. hmm..from now on, it's probably I'm gonna using my blog for showing you up my Pictures.. * I'm not a show off. Don't get me wrong*

The Villa.. We got there for free.. becauce the owner is my aunt.

Main air bareng-bareng di waterfall near our Villa..

My uncle pushed me into the water .. so I get so wet...

Gathered in the living room..we were watching,chatting,and teasing

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Been busy with my final.. and the exam is officially over..
been thinking for holiday..hmm.. haven't got the place yet. Any recomendation??

Bandung.....

2007-06-18T21:10:00.000+08:00

Heyyy...

Tasya is Back,,,,

Had a great and amazing Holiday with my babe and my friends ... Actually I went to 2 different places and with different companion.. First trip I went to Puncak with my Family.. I'll post the pictures soon..very soon..

and the day after just got back from Puncak.. I had another planned with Fikri and friends... Ya ya.. Bandung was it. Hmm,... I'll never forget those moments between us.. I'm very Happy .. thank you..

on Dago street, Bandung

Bertus who was took this picture.. *wink*

Paris Van Java, Bandung...

tried to being a good models of Mango..huehehehe..

of Manchester United Cafe, From left : Bertus, Uda Dendy (Fikri's brother), me, and FIkri..

"where's Bertus?"

Fikri tries to hold my hands..u see that?? *smile*

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Final exam is inchies from now... I gotta preparing myself..

I'll be update later..

* thank you..*

past few days...

2007-05-13T11:01:00.000+08:00

I've been so busy for past few days.. hmm.. I have so much to tell here.. but not having much time.. maybe I'll post just the point nya saja..hehe..Ok..

Here's an update..

I got a phone call then they offered me to be a Reporter for some TV shows at Anteve. and they contracted me for 9 episodes. ( but I didn't take it for some reasons ).

My midterm smster is already OVER !

My friend offered me to be his Vocalist Band for accoustic version..and the audition will take place on his studio.

Aunt Ida gave me a Miss Indonesia Form. She asked me to join and try it. ( hmm.. I'm still thinking.. )

When I went to Nokia care center with Fikri.. there's a guy who asked my Phone number. He works in some agency or something like production house, and he wants me to join the Film casting for his PH..

I do gym three times a week.. Marini was my gymmate.. : )

Fikri,my friends and I Planned go to Bandung next Friday.. Hmm.. Insya Allah...that would be fun..

I have a problem with my bills.. ( god damn it! )..

I did fight with some girls who really really sucks and annoying.. can u guys stop to make me being so rude because your attitude?

I've been having a nightmare... I can not talk to you guys.. it's so AWFUL and CREEPY.

Oh.. I gotta go now.. thanks..

I'm turning twenty today !

2007-04-17T10:14:00.000+08:00

woke up early this morning, whereas I just could sleep at 2 a.m. I'm still sleepy now but can't sleep more.

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*dazed*

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I sms-ed Fikri and asked him " Ayang, udah bangun? jadi pergi hari ini sama papa?" then.

I'm still in my room, nothing to do actually! I decide to blogging anyway.

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I went together with Marini and her bf,and with Fikri also.. lon Saturday night. went to Foodfast,Kemang and had dinner together while talking, and laughing, and teasing, and more laughing... hmm.. it was nice.

met my Highschool fellas.. My bestfriend Tya, Icha,Cintia,Tammy,Nisa,Buluk, and Arisyi.. unfortunately I couldn't join with them..because I already got a plan before they asked me to join with them .... *sorry...my friends..*

After that..we went to Wijaya and get to Karaoke-ing...Huehehe..

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Today I enter a new year, new age, getting older. Following my friends at the same batch which have entered the club earlier this year – welcome to the club 20s!
Yup, I’m turning twenty today. Usually I did not really bother about birthday, thanks all for the sms-es, calls, emails, testimonials,wishes. Thank u dear..

Funny that I also have same feeling or worries in getting twenty as other friends who share their feeling on being 20th. Worries here means more. I have to become an useful girl of course...theres always some question on my mine.. " am I already became a women? or am I still a girl?" hmm.. dunno.. like Britney Spears's song.. " I'm not a girl, not yet a women". Hehehe.. I must say I’m quite satisfied and thankful for what I’ve done and going through. Alhamdulillah…

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Talking about my birthday, I have a wishes.. yup..

First wish : I wish that Allah SWT always be on my side, always protecting me,and I hope I can get closer of Him, Solat 5 waktunya ngga bolong-bolong lagi ya Tasya.. amin.

Second wish : Successful on my study.. hmm.. semester depan gw Harus dapet IPK : 4.00. but at least I've been always trying hardly to get it.

Third wish : hmm.. *shy smile*... I hope Fikri is still mine. hehehe.. not only for this year, I want him to be with me till the next ..the next..the next... ?????

Forth wish : Getting old needs more maintenance, rite? :) I’m not that kinda gal who is always up-to-date with latest skin care technology or make-up trend, and I don’t really know the trick and dos-and-donts of make up, skin care, hair maintenance and body care. So looks better is one of my resolutions just to keep me motivated to take care of myself, my health, and to feel better of myself. Huehehe...

Fifth wish : Always being Tasya that people used to know. Huehehe.. The better ones actually.

My teen years

2007-04-13T13:41:00.000+08:00

My birthday is nearly close.. huehehe.. and I'll become a 20-years-old-girl. And of course I should be a wise girl than before. yeah.. I know I am not that good on my 19 years old. I did a lots of mistake and ignorance,even a silly fighting with some girl who really sucked and really annoyed me! but atleast I totally OVER u, biatch!

enough regreting the past.. I look forward my 20-years-old me.

I wish that life was easier. i understand that in my life. Things are wonderful and good, but for a close loved one and the family,they are struggling. All of sudden I hit my rebellious teen years. I'm struggling for an identity, I'm not old enough to be an adult and I'm not young enough to be a babied. I'm getting a taste of freedoms but feel like things are unstable and at the same time, not free enough. Maybe the teenage years are hard. I don't know who I am and no one really understand me.

"semua ada saatnya".they said.

Ya,I know.. everything that could be happened. not as expected. not as imagined. We've been always expecting ONLY the good side, and the bad side is forgotten. ( well, I am just a human).. all I want is everthing comes good for me.. but hey.. I'm on a real life, not in the heaven where I could just sit,relax, without thinking what would be happen tommorow?

this is my time to change.. i mean.. change a bad habit on me. and always keeping my good side on me. Occay!

All the best wishing for me. and I hope Allah always be on my side.Amien.

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Oh ya, gw dapet temen baru, not a new friend juga sih but my long-time-no-talk friend, actually! Namanya Marini,anak kampus juga.. semester 1 kita sering ngobrol2,tapi pas semester 2 dst nya udah agak jarang, karena jadwal kuliah nya yang ngga sama.Dan akhir2 ini kita sering ketemu lagi dikantin. kita telfon2an dan telling to each other about us and all.. most of the topic we talked was our boyfriend. yah.. I know it's a girl's things basically. the conversantion went really fun. kita punya banyak persamaan sepertinya *shy smile*.

Hari Kamis kemaren kita pergi bareng, with her kindly heart. she's waiting for me almost 2 hours till my classes's over. soalnya gw selesai kuliah tuh jam setengah 4 an sedangkan dia jam 1 udah selesai. Kasian juga sih tu anak nungguin gw sendirian..dan celakanya pas nungguin gw di parkiran kaca spion mobilnya diserempet orang,dan tu orang ngga mau ganti rugi lagi. duh..I fely sorry ya mar.. Ini gara2 lo nungguin gw sih..padahalkan gw udah bilang besok aja kita perginya.huh..btw,forgive me babe..

Kita berdua tuh punya usul buat ngenalin pacar kita masing2. Dari cerita kita masing2 tuh kayaknya sifat dan kelakuan pacar2 kita tuh hampir sama.. ( tapi tetep Mar, My boyfriend still the coolest one than yours..) huahaha.. *peace out*. Nah, rencananya malem minggu ini kita punya rencana double date gitu deh,hehehe.. cuma makan bareng atau ngga jalan2 aja..yang penting pacar2 kita tuh saling kenal, dan juga si Fikri bisa percaya kalo gw sewaktu-waktu pergi sama Marini. begitchu.. dan satu kesaman kita lagi..kita tuh sama-sama sangat menyayangi dan mencintai dengan segenap hati sama pacar kita.Huehehehe.. don't puke,people!

Nagabonar jadi 2 ~~

2007-04-10T00:17:00.000+08:00

Last Friday I watched 'Nagabonar (jadi) 2' at Senayan city Theatre. I tell you. This is a must watch! and I tell you.. This movie was soooooooooooo funny, I repeat, Soooooo Funny... Seriously! it never stop to makes me laught during the show. I can't even control myself when Nagabonar said " ko tu seperti mencari ketek ular saja." I was thinking.. and I never know that Snake has an armpit...*laugh-to-the-floor*. hehehe..

This is a new version from the old ones. it played by Indonesian Senior Actor, Deddy Mizwar as Nagabonar and The funny dude from Extravaganza, Tora Sudiro as Bonaga. unlike the old version, Nagabonar has a son named Bonaga on it, Nagabonar sent his son to England to continuing his study and finally became a rich,handsome,and succesfull men in Jakarta. Nagabonar is an industrialist who has a coconut plantation in Medan,North Sumatera. and then. You better go watch it yourself.no time to tell right now. maleesss.~~

oh ya, The most funny part *i guess* when Nagabonar met The policemen and the conversation between them happened..until The Policemen told Nagabonar with-his-so-funny-ugly-miserably-face.. " Saya hanya menjalankan tugas pak, saya takut melanggar aturan pak, kalau petugas yang melanggar hukumannya lebih berat pak, jadi tolonglah pak..." ( sumpah, lucu banget polisinya pas di bagian ini)... Maybe I can't show u their funny face...or their expression while they're spoken..that's why I asked u to watch it by yourself.occay??

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Facts of Tasya,right now.

I've been thinking for do something of my hair, I don't know yet,maybe I'll cut my hair a bit short, or I just give them a bit curls..but noo..hmm.. maybe I just give them a bit treatment.. I feel my hair going to be rather smooth since I change my Shampoo.. from Dove to Rejoice.
Oh ya, Berat badan gw sekarang udah 50 kg lho..diet sukses sepertinya! huehehe. but . still. I have to control myself to eat.
I can't sleep.
I want to eat Chocolate right now. I know. it'll makes me fat. couldn't careless.
I'm sleepy. but still can't sleep.
Oh.. I forgot to using the night cream..oh.. malaasss..
I have to wake up early tomorrow.
1 assignment to go on Wednesday.grrr...
My birthday is nearly close to me.
I'll become a 20-years-old girl this year ( cukup tua..bertobatlah..dekat2 pada Allah ya)
I miss my mom,dad,bro,and my home.
I want to be Fikri by my side all the time.
I'm Happy with my life now. Alhamdulillah...
Thank God.. for everything He gave to me.. Thank u My Lord. Allah SWT.
I'm happy with my physical appearance.
I'm happy being myself.
I'm too sarcastis. Some people think that I am mean,and bitchy,and nasty.and arrogant. ( that means they didn't know me as well).
I am totally capable of worrying until I get a headache. ( I'll change it..)
I hate some people .. ( dedicated-to-u-know-who-u-are = you got bitched by me ). ok.
I am good of remembering anything.
I'll always remember with anything that happened to me. got it!
I want to sleep right now.bye

discohello agogo

2007-04-03T01:09:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey... gimana gimana??...
so much things i want to tell..dunno where to start. hmm..

malam minggu kemaren.. menyenangkan.. Ian nraktir kita makan di Bakmi Toko Tiga di Mt Haryono situ, Yang ikut tuh Nenek, Gw, Fikri, Fara,Noni,dan Ian. Gw kurang begitu semangat sih makannya, soalnya pas sorenya gw udah makan di AH restaurant sama Fikri. Gw makan Chicken Royal+Salad (Rp 10.000 ambil sepuasnya). huehehe.. tapi karena udah berhubung janji mau ikut makan malem bareng jadi kita ikut. Btw, tapi Fikri kelihatannya masih laper deh, buktinya Mie yamin gw yang ngga abis dia yang abisin *ckckck.. dasar si pacar*...

After had dinner..we gotback to drop my grandma off at home..before we start to Paaarrttyyyy..Discohello aGoGo.. huhuhu...ya, Ian's brother is an owner of Bliss..and 31th March is Bliss anniversary..so Ian inviting us to attend the party.. hmm.. I've been a long time didn't clubbing.The party was good, but nothing special except when Denada and Iwa K sang my fav songs.. I got a bit bored in the first place coz I didn't likehiphop that played by the Dj. but after midnight the music has switch to 80's Disco.. I like the oldiest acctually. When a 'Dance with somebody ' playing by the DJ ..I started ajojing and kept on singing that song.. oya, the Members are Gw,Fikri,Ian,Noni,Fara,Dea,and Tya.. this was my first time went clubbing with Fikri..Hehehe.. and surprise..I saw Fikri with his dance..ya ya ya.. ketahuan ya..ckckck.. gw ngga ada jaim2 sedikit pun sama Fikri... begitu pun dia.. I'll post my Photos that we took in Bliss later.occay!!

oh there's someone annoyed me on that party..i dunno..who he was.He looked like an Arabian or Indian or something like that. well..couldnt careless. but He kept on stared at me..*creepy*.. Didn't u see my bf who was standing in front of me and would kick ur ass if u keep on seeing me like that? but I didn't tell Fikri there's someone who annoyed me.. I'm afraid Fikri might get mad if He knows there's some bastardo staring me like penjahat kelamin looks.

>>>>

my today's activities :

woke up late,so I ran headed to campus to get my first class with ibu Arie.
had lunch at canteen. I ate my fav meal. Mie Yamin and Mango juice.
had fight with Fikri,so that I can't concentrating on my lecture as well.
called Fikri and inviting him to watch "Naga Bonar jadi 2 " this afternoon.
after maghrib we rushed to TIM ,we're looking for NGJ2 ticket..but the ticket's sold out.
tried looking the tickets in Megaria.but the ticket's sold out juga.
had dinner in front of TIM,and we ate Pecel Ayam and Pecel Lele.
went home..and solving our problem.
we're fine.. udah ngga berantem lagi... senangnyaa..

Nonton,nonton,dan nonton

2007-03-31T00:35:00.000+08:00

Mr Bean's holiday.. hmm.. Funny! go watch! I watched with Fikri at EX today.. the funny part was when Mr. Bean's and the kid trying hard to called the kid's father. karena Mr. Bean sama anak kecil itu ngga lihat nomer terakhir dari telfon ayahnya jadi mereka buat beberapa perkiraan nomer belakang telfonnya. mulai dari 00 sampai 99..mereka cobain satu-satu.. lucunya ada beberapa orang yang ditelfon tuh aneh2..ada yang bunuh diri dikira yang nelfon itu pacarnya,ada yang lagi pipis pas angkat telfon hpnya kecebur masuk ke closetnya. itu tuh lucu banget..lo harus nonton. ada juga pas Mr.Bean nya makan di restoran sana trus makan udang sama kerang mentah, oiya yang pas mereka berdua ngamen gitu dengan cara nyuri speaker orang yang jual cd.. setiap lagu yang diputer ditiruin gayanya sama si Mr. Bean. apalagi pas yang lagi lagu seriosa gitu.. sumpah LUCU banget! sampe2 mereka bikin kayak opera gitu deh.. dan orang-orang yang nontonin langsung ngasih banyak duit gitu.. terhibur banget sama aksi si Mr. Bean. yang sumpah stupid banget..kok ada ya makhluk yang stupidnya ngga ketulungan.Hehehe..tapi gw salut banget sama Mr. Bean ini. Kalo diperatiin mukanya tu ngga berubah sama Mr. Bean yang gw tonton waktu umur gw masih 13 tahunan..How come ya??

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Good news.. gw terpilih jadi salah satu anggota team Peradilan Semu di Fakultas gw.. gw ngga tau sih mulai latihannya kapan. tapi udah dikasih tau kalo gw kepilih.. ada 8 orang kalo ngga salah. Dan katanya langsung ada kompetisi Peradilan Semu.. duh,, gw harus bisa nih. tapi gw ngerasa belum punya apa2.. masih bego banget gw. Tapi gw harus bisa.

Kamis kemaren ada seminar tentang masalah Narkoba di GMC, tapi gw ngga bisa dateng.. anak2 aja yang pada dateng. Gw telat bangun masalahnya.. dan juga gw ada 3 mata kuliah gw pikir..dan ternyata apa coba?? 2 dari 3 dosen gw ngga masuk..huh..nyebelin!! jadinya gw cuma ada 1 mata kuliah..tau gitu gw ikut seminar aja..gw sempet ngga enak juga sih sama Bombi gara2 gw ngga ikut, 'sorry ya Bom...' . mudah-mudahan aja pada ngga ngambek.

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kenapa sih susah banget sign in di blogger?? huh.. apa yang salah?? connection nya kah atau dari bloggernya?dunno lha..

oiya,besok Ian mau traktir kita makan malem..katanya sih Gaji pertama.. seperti biasa budaya orang Indonesia,gaji pertama harus di ciprat2in ke orang-orang terdekat.konon..supaya rejekinya lancar terus..amienn ... hmm.. kira-kira mau makan dimana ya?? kata Noni sih di Bakmi Toko Tiga.. belum pernah nyoba gw.

tadi Wtp gw ngajakin nonton sama Uwi,Cabo,dan teman-temannya.. tapi sayang,gw udah duluan nonton. Kalo dipikir-pikir..apa kabar ya sama anak-anak itu? Wtp,Dewi,Tya,Nina, dan lain lain.. udah lama banget gw ngga ketemu mereka..padahal amsih satu kota gini...ckckck

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Gw udah nonton Jakarta Undercover ..Luna Maya nya sumpah BERANI banget.. Bitchy banget lah pokonya.. mulai dari tarian erotisnya.. gile banget deh.. mana gw nontonnya sama Fikri lagi,.. gw aja cewe ngeliatnya sexy banget gimana co. huh.. trus Fachry Albarnya berperan sebagai Amanda..Amanda itu bencong gitu deh..tapi dia itu baik banget sama Vicky (Luna Maya-red.), amanda itu pengen selalu ngejagain Vicky..ngga boleh ada yang nyakitin Vicky, sampe-sampe Amanda meninggal gara-gara ngebelain Vicky dari Bastardos itu.. kalo ngeliat kelakuan Bastardos itu sumpah gw ngeri banget nerima kenyataan kehidupan Jakarta yang sebenernya, itu tuh serem banget. walaupun ceritanya ngga pure nyeritain kehidupan malem di Jakarta. Cuma sebagian aja.. paling kayak Clubbing,drugs,kebut-kebutan di jalan,sampe Banci yang magkal di pinggir jalan.

Gw miris banget waktu para assholes itu 'make' banci itu sampe banci itu meninggal lemas dan waktu mereka mukulin Amanda gara-gara Amanda ngga mau kasih tau rumahnya Vicky..ngga berprikemanusiaan banget deh..*banci kan juga manusia* . Hehehe.. bagi Banci-banci di Taman lawang pasti tersinggung banget deh kalo nonton film ini.

Tapi yang jelas gw SUKA banget sama actingnya Luna Maya disini..Seriously! It was so damn cool. kalo ada yang pengen tahu cerita lebih lanjutnya ya nonton aja ya. Filmnya bagus kok..

tasya mo bobo..daaghh

mixa feelings

2007-03-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

" Pertama dan Terakhir"

Aku selalu ingin jadi orang pertama yang kamu cari disaat kamu bangun tidur
Aku selalu ingin jadi orang pertama yang kamu SMS setiap pagi
Aku selalu ingin jadi orang pertama yang kamu telfon setiap hari
Aku selalu ingin jadi orang pertama yang bisa merasakan kebahagian kamu
Aku selalu ingin jadi orang pertama yang bisa buat kamu tersenyum disaat kamu sedih
Aku selalu ingin jadi orang pertama yang selalu kamu butuhkan dalam segalanya
Aku selalu ingin jadi orang pertama yang kamu peluk,yang kamu cium
Aku selalu ingin jadi orang pertama yang nemenin kamu kapanpun kamu minta
Tapi
Aku selalu ingin jadi orang terakhir yang kamu sayang dan cintai .

Hari ini satu tahun tiga bulan kita bersama,alhamdulillah...Aku seneng yang.. Aku sayang kamu ayang..

>>>>>

Beberapa minggu lalu gw kirim SMS ke beberapa temen yang isinya "Describe in ONE word!"
dan ini balesan SMS mereka...

Zee says: Wise
Tessa Sastrowardoyo says : Friendly
Nadya Jogja says: HOT
Nabil says: Beautiful
WTP says: Mature
Rommy says: Asyik
Bang Donny says: Pretty
Pasha says: Unforgetable
Mike Wildblood says: Vivacious
Ian says: Kelly
Dean Gesuri says: Rame
Mr. Bombit Philipines says: Smart
NadyaBombi says: Jorok
Nadya SD says: Asik
Irma says: Sociable
Aunt Ria says: Narcisstsweetygenerous
Bang Bebek says: Cheerful
Puti says: Nice
Gena says: BerantemersSeriuosUnguers
AYANG FIKRI says: Sophisticated

How about YOU guys???

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gw berusaha ngga cemburu ngeliatnya. gw berusaha membiasakan diri ngeliatnya. gw berusaha ngga sakit tau ada dia disekitarnya. gw berusaha berpura-pura untuk terlihat kalo ngga ada apa-apa. gw ngga mau diaanggap anak kecil. gw ngga mau dia ngancurin hubungan gw. gw ngga rela dia deket-deket dirinya. gw ngga rela dia gangguin hidupnya lagi. gw berusaha tegar. gw berusaha ngga sedih. gw berusaha jadi yang terbaik buatnya. gw berusaha buat ngeredam semua emosi gw. gw berusaha jadi seperti apa yang dia minta. gw benci dia. gw ngga suka dia ada di sekelilingnya. gw ngga mau gw disakitin dia. gw ngga mau dia ada dipikiran gw lagi. gw ngga mau dia ada untuk selama-lamanya..

when I wake up tomorrow. YOU dissapear..

malam minggu

2007-03-25T01:18:00.001+08:00

malem minggu bareng sama temen2nya Fikri.. the members are Gw,Fikri,Bertus,Eka,Shandy and her boyfriend,Putri. Gathered in Senayan City and had dinner together there. sebenernya kita ngga ngerencanain buat malem mingguan bareng, tapi pas sore si Bertus sama Eka nelfon kita dan ngajak jalan bareng. Rencananya mau ke Senayan City ketemu sama Shandy & Putri.. jam 5an mereka berdua ke rumah gw buat jemput gw sama Fikri..abis maghrib baru kita jalan.

nyampe di Senayan City langsung ketemuan sama si Shandy Putri. muter-muter sebentar baru kita makan malamdi Food court, rencana awalgw Bertus,Fikri,sama Eka.. kita makannya di Comic cafe.. tapi ngga enak sama Shandy kalo dateng nya cuma sebentar. abis makan kita cuma muter-muter aja.. ngikutin si Putri nyari barang.. mulai dari Zara-SML-Orange-Bebe-sampe nyari sepatu di VNC. udah kira-kira jam 9an kita balik..nganterin Shandy ama Putri dulu ke apartement mereka baru langsung kita ke Comic Cafe, gw juga janjian sama sepupu gw, Fara. Dia cuma berdua sama si Heru (ck ckc ck.. far, kalo ketauan Afghan gimana lo malem minggu pergi sama mantan???)...tapi biarlah..

Ngobrol2 sebentar, maen Uno, minum-minum walaupun minuman pesenan gw lama banget dan akhirnya di cancel.. huh..tapi tadi emang rame banget sih.. malem minggu namanya. mungkin waiter nya juga udah kkecapean juga udah malem.. jadi gw memakluminya lah...

gw sampe rumah sekitar jam 11.30pm...dan sekarang gw udah bergegas untuk tidur.. yah seperti biasa.. Hari yang selalu menyenangkan..Alhamdulillah..

oiya, tadi sempet rada kesel juga sih sama Fikri gara2 si Galuh2 itu..huh..bete! cape gw ! yah..gw percaya aja sama Fikri kalo ngga gw bisa gila sendiri ngadepinnya..

*good night,people...bye*

my menstruation

2007-03-24T00:01:00.000+08:00

got back from watching "The Good Shepherd" played by Matt Damon and Angelina JOlie- Si Sexy at XXI Senayan City. it likes Secret Agent movie.. I got a bit confused in the first place, plot ceritanya maju mundur gitu.. started from 1960.. and move back to 1940 then move forward to 1956,I'm trying to concentrate the movie and understanding the stories of this movie. A bit complicated I think. maybe not for Fikri who I thought really understand what the movie means. am I 'lemot' ? or Fikri was smart enough than me to understand this movie?.. ngga tau deh. You have to Watch this movie yourself.. then tell me what do u think about the movie. Occay!

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gile.. mens gw hari ini banyak banget.. ini hari pertama sih, dan anehnya tumben-tumbenan banget gw ngga jungkir balik nahan sakit perut, not like usuall. Thanks God. Biasanya tuh gw kalo udah hari pertama mens like many Girls felt .. gw tuh bisa sampe nangis nahannya.. itu tuh ngga enak banget. bukan sakit perut mau pup juga.. dani kebiasaan gw kalo hari pertama mens tu wajib 'nongrong' di closet walaupun gw ngga ngeluarin apa2. pup-red. agak-agak aneh sih kebiasaan gw. Kalo udah nongkrong gitu gw jadi sugesti sendiri dan rasa sakit di perut gw seakan-akan ngga ada. Yang gw rasain kalo lagi 'nongkrong' tuh.. kayaknya peredaran mens gw lancar dan kayaknya dingin aja p****t gw.. segeeerrrr.. kira-kira bisa makan waktu sekitar 15 menitan buat ngelakuin 'treatment' ini, dan harus secara berulang-ulang, dijamin deh sakit perut gw hilang seketika. Anybody wants to try my 'treatment'???

Mimpi

2007-03-21T18:55:00.000+08:00

hei hei hei..hari ini hari pertama kuliah lagi after long very long holiday.. ngga tau lagi deh mau ngapain kalo mesti libur lagi.. i love being home actually.. but i'm not sure i'd make it good .. kangen juga pengen belajar lagi.. kangen pengen ngumpul-ngumpul sama anak-anak yang gokilitu.

first lecture I got was Hukum Administrasi Negara and this is my second time to met Bu Rosni as my lecturer,, eventhough she's a bit impudent and different unlike the others, I loved her. it's True. tapi ngga sedikitn sih yang takut ambil kelasnya dia..banyak juga temen2 gw yang lain pindah ke kelas Pak Piet.. tapi gw tetep pada pendirian gw dan gw pikir Bu Rosni ngga segalak sama yang orang pikir deh.. gw banyak pelajaran hidup dari beliau,ngga cuma dalam pelajaran aja,dari mulai gaya berfikir, gaya hidup sampe ke masalah pacaran. enak bgt deh pokonya. gw malah mengharapkan semua dosen kayak Bu Rosni.. kalo semua dosen kayak dia. I"M SURE semua mahasiswa Jayabaya bakal pinter semua. gw yakin banget deh .

Kuliah kedua Hukum Ketenagakerjaan sama Pak Bujang.. ini pertama kali diajar sama dia,belum bisa menilai banget sih.. abisnya tadi gw sambil sms an sama Fikri. Hehehe.. tapi sekilas kayaknya orang nya sersan.serius tapi santai-red. dan suka ngajak anak2 diskusi.. dan suka nanya2 gw. tadi aja gw 5 kali dapet pertanyaan.. nanyain pendapat gitu sih.. seakan-akan ada tulisan di jidat gw 'ask me'..abis kayak ngga ada orang aja yang bisa ditanyain.Hehehe.. but never mind..

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oiya gw lagi suka banget sama lagu ini..

"MIMPI"

dalam hitam kelap malam
kuberdiri melawan sepi
di sini di pantai ini
telah terkubur sejuta kenangan
dihempas keras gelombang
dan tertimbun batu karang
yang tak kan mungkin dapat terulang
wajah putih pusat pasi
tergores luka di hati
matamu membuka kisah
kasih asmara yang telah ternoda
hapuskan semua khayalan
lenyapkan satu harapan
kemana lagi harus mencari

kau sandarkan sejenak beban dirikau taburkan benih kasih
hanyalah emosi..

reff:
melambung jauh terbang tinggi
bersama mimpi
terlelap dalam lautan emosi
setelah aku sadar dirikau tlah jauh pergi
tinggalkan mimpi yang tiada bertepi
kini hanya rasa rindu
merasuk di dada
serasa sumpah melayang pergi
terbawa arus kasih membara

lagu ini dinyanyiin sama Anggun C Sasmi judulnya 'Mimpi'... gw lagi suka banget sama lagu ini, bukan berarti liriknya sama kisah hidup gw sekarang..ngga sama sekali. Malah sebaliknya.. Hehe..

Bandung

2007-03-20T00:08:00.000+08:00

>> my Cousins.Fara-Me-Noni-mba Ika-Kak Lela

>> rame-rame nih..but, where's Bayu??

>> Hehe.. Bersama Pacar tercinta.. *kiss*

>> Candle Light dinner @ Congo Restaurant.Cool~

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just got back from somewhere lha pastinya, pergi sama Fikri and Bertus ke La piazza Kelapa Gading.. seperti biasa kill the time. hehe .
hey..

kemaren hari Minggu tepatnya yang emang udah direncanain malemnya,kita semua mau ke Bandung..alhamdulillah berjalan dengan cukup lancar.. agak-agak macet sedikit sih.. tapi tetep seru. Yang ikutan pergi tuh.Gw, Fikri, Fara,Noni,Kak Lela,Mba'Ika,Bayu,and Wa'ida as our mom. Seru deh. tujuan pertama ke daerah Dago pakar,kita mau makan di Congo restaurant, yang katanya tuh viewnya juga bagus banget dengan harga yang lumayan murah.. it was a bit hard to get there.. we got lost in the first place, tapi nanya-nanya sama orang aja, dan akhirnya kita sampe juga.

Kita sampe pas hari udah agak sore mau pindah ke malem which is agak-agak kemerahan gitu langitnya.. Hmm.. itu tuh keren banget! sayangnya kita cuma sempet foto-foto sedikit,abisnya tuh anak-anak udah pada laper berat..jadi pikiran utama ya..makanan! hehe.. Gw makan Chicken Cordon Blue.. tau ngga itu porsinya banyak banget deh.. gw aja makannya sharing sama Fikri, pokonya makanannya enak-enak deh..didukung sama suasan yang dingin sejuk dengan alunan musik jazz yang calming banget.. hmm..T.O.P B.G.T lah pokoknya..

abis itu kita ke Rumah Mode.. yang adanya di daerah Setiabudi yang lumayan jauh dari Dago Pakar. Dan dasar long weekend dimana-mana pasti macet.. perjalanan menuju Rumah Mode tuh 1 jam setengahan..Macet banget! untungnya dari Congo gw yang bawa mobilnya, kalo ngga Kasian banget pacar saya itu.. Hehehe...

Sampe di Rumah Mode.. sepupu-sepupu gw pada kalap gitu belanjanya...I got 2 pcs top.. red satin dress.. itu tuh keren banget deh.. pasti sexy banget deh. trus gw beli atasan lengan panjang warna item juga..Fikri juga beli baju Guess gitu warna abu-abu.. semuanya pada belanja lah..

abis dari Rumah Mode kita beli Surabi Bandung.. it'snot like an usual Serabi that we know.. pake Topping gitu.. ada rasa Coklat meses, Coklat Keju,Isi Daging sosis..pokonya NIKMAT lah judulnya..enak banget.. harganya juga pas lah ngga mahal-mahal banget tapi ngantrinya itu lho.. hampir 2 jam..mantap banget ngga tuh! tapi puas lha..

rencana pertama sih emang ngga nginep.. tapi seketika pada pengen nginep .. kita nginepnya di Kosannya Ridi,dia kan lagi di Jakarta, jadi kosong. kita tidur empet2an.. tapi tetep seru lah.. apapun jadi seru lah kemaren. jam 1 gw tidur. pagi k ita udah check out ( ca ilah.. kayak nginep di hotel aje ) dari kosan.. and got breakfast at Gedung sate area.. we ate Kupat Tahu and Lontong Kari..hmm... nyam nyam nyam.. udah kenyan kita langsung beli Btagor Kingsley.. anak-anak pada mau ke FO gitu.. tapi berhubung pada masih tutup jadinya kita nunggu sekita sejaman..kita ke Ouval research akhirnya tapi gw ngga beli apa2..

Dan terakhir beli oleh-oleh di Kartika Sari.. semuanya enak-enak dan murah-murah. Seriously! gw kalap gitu belinya.. pengen semuanya di makan rasanya. Hehehe.. gw beli buat Fikri makan di Jalan, kasian kan pacar tercinta nyetir tapi tidak di servis dengan baik. Hehehe.. Btw, thank you babe for the holiday.. it was such a great time babe.. thank you. *cup cup*.. Love u.

* hmm.. I'm out now...*

spent my whole day together

2007-03-18T01:56:00.000+08:00

I just watched Aquamarine. It's nice .and quiet funny.it really does.

malam minggu yang selalu menyenangkan sama dia, even a bit fuss happened between us,but it was solved already. like every saturday night,we always get spending the whole day together,and I accept the fact that I'll never feel bored of being together all day with him,he always makes me content,like what I've ever told ya before,rite? . Oh ya.. I felt sorry that I can't meet my highschool friends today. Suddenly Icha texted me to come at PS on 1.00 pm, and of course I couldn't make it because I've got a plan befora she asked me out. I'm so sorry my friends.. I'll try make it next time, I promise guys! *but u all have to tell me a day before,ok* ...

Hmm.. di rumah tadi rame sekali,ada kak lenny and family, ada wa' ida kustur juga,ada kak Lela,Fara,dan semuanya deh.. oiya mba Ika juga baru dateng tuh dari Bali, iya.. gara-garanya tuh di Bali tuh besok mau nyepi.. dan lo tau kan kalo lagi nyepi tuh keadaan di Bali tu gimana.. no crowd,no electricity,no tv, no mall open,and else.. *shudder*.. dan akhirnya mba Ika mutusin buat pulang ke Jakarta aja jadinya.

oiya, gw belum cerita ya hari ini gw kemana aja.. hmm.. pertama kita makan dulu di depan TIM *masih dalam keadaan berantem* so.. I skip this part,occay! then we decided to watching movie at Megaria, but the movie begin on 7.30 pm.. and it was just 6.00 pm,then we had to wait atleast 1 hour and 30. fiuh..and we agreed to came back home first. Around 7.00 pm we went to EX, we got Noni's BCA credit card that we could get 'buy one get one' for the movies's ticket.. but pathetic us, it's so awful parking lot.. so we agreed to get movie next .damn! abis itu kita ngupi-ngupi deh di Bengawan Solo coffea till 9.30 after the shopguard tells us that the shop closed at 9.30 teng ! wahahaha..maluu...

uh.. I want to sleep now. oh ya.. besok rencananya gw sama Fikri sama sepupu-sepupu gw mau ke Bandung kalo ngga ada halangan.. ya liat besok lagi aja..ok..

I'm signing off. bubye. sweetdream and gudnite people !

double date

2007-03-17T03:48:00.001+08:00

akhirnyaaaa... giling ya susah bgt masuk ke blogger.. susah bgt kalo via gmail. fiuuhhh,,, tadi gw sempet mles banget nungguin loadingnya.. anjrit lama banget..

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hmm.. today was so blast.. ya.. greatful lah pokonya.. gw janjian sama Fikri di rumah, langsung headed to my campus lihat jadwal semester ini.. dan sepertinya semester ini gw akan sangat sibuk.. hampir tiap hari gw kuliah tanpa ada libur, from my morning class on monday and wednesday,I tell u! the class begin at 7.30.. oh God.. pathetic me! abis udah ngga ada lagi yang siang.. yah.. terima aja deh , do it with fun aja lah... fiuhh,,, dan mudah2an aja dosennya bagus2 dan tidak nyusahin para muridnya. gw butuh dosen yang bisa buka pikiran gw, ngga teks book aja.. katro pemikirannya, yang buku wajibnya udah dipake dari bunda gw kuliah dulu, ngga up2date banget ya.. ckckckck.

abis dari kampus,we went to gading mall.. tau ngga kenapa kita kesana..??? hehehe.. gw pengen nyobain laptop baru gw ni, nyari hotspot yang gratisan gitu deh.. norak banget ya.. tapi seru juga lho.. pertengahan lagi maen internet *gratisan* , kakaknya fikri nelfon and minta di jemput di PS, katanya sama temennya juga.. Fikri sempet kesel gitu mukanya.. ngga tau kenapa, mungkin dia mikir jauh banget jemputnya dan macet pula.. tapi gapapa kan yang sekalian jalan-jalan kota Jakarta.. Hehehe..

jam 8an nyampe di PS, dikenalin ke da Dendy sama temennya namanya Putri, double date deh kita, hehe langsung cari makan di daerah rumah gw (pastinya!) dan akhirnya got the place at Sabang..makan sop kambing sama teh tawar anget.. hmm.. lumayan enak.. ngobrol ngalor ngidul sampe akhirnya jam 10 ciaoo.. they dropped me off first. Hm.. comentar buat kakaknya Fikri : ternyata tidak mirip ya mukanya bedaanya kalo Fikri agak2 ke arab2an sedangkan kakaknya agak sipit gitu, Fikri seems taller than da dendy,they have same thing on the way they spoken and laugh,sama-sama agak jayus,dan yang pasti sama-sama orang p.a.d.a.n.g *tak bisa dipungkiri*. Hehehehe

hari ini menyenangkann.. asikk. besok kita ketemu lagi.. rencananya sih mau nonton 300.. lihat besok lagi juga sih ..

*sayang sama ayangnya* cupcup,,alhamdulillah

^^^

senin besok udah masuk kuliah lagi.. dan start of something new in my campus life.. hmm.. any idea?? ganti potongan rambut atau gaya gitu contohnya?? boleh juga tuh .. *smile seductively*

oiya, hasil IP sem gw 3.7 ** tapi agak sedikit kecewa sih, maunya sih gw 4.. tapi ada 2 mata kuliah yang emang I didn't pay much attention.. Hukum International and Ilmu perundangu-undangan I got B for both.. honestly, I dislike with their teaching style.. ngga ada improvisasi gitu kayaknya.. taught us with their elaborate explanation that made me more confused what exactly they wanted to explain. membosankan gitu gaya ngajarnya.. huh, bete.

ya.. berharap ngga ada lagi dosen kayak gitu semester ini..

catch it !!

2007-03-06T16:13:00.000+08:00

something in life is just plain simple and easy, not love though...
kisah cinta emang ngga selalu indah dan menyenangkan, kita juga ngga tahu apa yang akan terjadi ke depannya. Will we last as lovers? or better off as friends?
but see.. that's the beauty of it all. Tne not knowing part. Free fall aja.. Where it all lands? We'll never know.

Just believe that somehow that's where u are supposed to be. yang terbaik toh belum tentu yang terindah.. so they say, rite?
but if u ask me what do i prefer between 'terbaik' atau 'terindah' towards my guy?? hmm.. the answer is.. ' terbaik' lah.. that's what i'm still trying to be now.. hope so.. be the best for him.

emang sih di dunia ini ngga cinta melulu yang harus dibahas. Dangkal banget!!! it's true that this world does not always have to revolve around love and the issues of love. But, there's no denying that... it does exist. Love does exist. = ]

I don't know what I'm trying to say for y'all... hmmm...

menurut kalian?
How about your love life? still going strong? or still going straight to the drain? ur love life literally suck?tough suck.
However, fight for it! No longer a believer in love?
Hey... like we've said before, shit happens, rite?
Heart gets broken. it will mend.. lost ur love?
if it's for you,they'll reappear...Haven't found it yet?
Trust us, it will come around..
just keep waiting and be patient for it.

It's crazy thing,indeed. this thing called love!
but if u'll just take a moment to realize,
the essentially... love is all around you.
even in the corner of ur eyes.
so..DO look around !

and whatever happens...
just keep looking, OK!

the point of this entry is.. "love will find u if u try " HaHaHa.. ( seperti slogan disalah satu acara reality show ya??? ) .

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Hmm.. I'm not in mood to tell u'all about my past few days actually. But all i want to say is I had a completely surely beautiful past few days. Thank God.

many things happened, many event filled my days...

Seseorang. . .

2007-02-26T16:08:00.000+08:00

Namanya Akmal Fikri...

Seseorang yang selalu ada kapan aja gue membutuhkan sepasang kuping buat ngedengerin segala isi kepala dan hati gue. *tong sampah* kesayangan gue ( dalam arti yang baik lho yang..).. waiting with open arms, whenever the going gets tough for me. Seseorang yang bisa jadi 'punch bag' gue, disaat gue lagi emosian berat. Bukan berarti dia jadi sasaran emosi gue, tapi entah gimana, dia selalu punya cara buat ngeredam semuanya. Dia juga bisa jadi "hippity top" yang selalu ngebantu gue dalam urusan bouncing my life back on track,disaat gue udah mulai keluar jalur.. ( mungkin secara ngga sadar).

Seseorang yang bisa gue ajak gila-gilaan, tanpa takut bakal jadi gila beneran. cuz' he keeps me sane. walaupun kadang ada disaat dimana, he can really drives me crazy too. I mean totally crazy.. nearly bonkers... For real !

Seseorang yang bisa nemenin gue seharian tanpa pernah ngerasa bosen atau gimana, seseorang yang bisa kapan aja nemenin gue. Kadang juga seseorang yang bisa bikin gue nangis,sedih,keilangan kalo dia lagi ngga ada si samping gue,kalo dia lagi marah sama gue karena kesalahan gue yang stupid bgt. Seseorang yang gue pengen bisa nemenin gue sampe gue udah nenek-nenek..Seseorang yang gw sayangin bgt,,untuk saat ini kita emang ngga bisa dipisahin, istilah kerennya kayak Yin and Yang,kayak tukang baso sama bakso2nya,kayak Inul sama goyang ngebornya,pokonya gitu deh.. he's just basically the other side of my coin..there's no escape in that.

Seseorang yang bisa bikin gue merasa hidup,bahagia,tolol,kuat,bangga,sedih,lucu...terberkati! and a thousand other different feelings! tapi yang pasti, being with him,his presence just simply makes me feel.. I'm home!. Nothing ever feel 'this' right. I guess.. nothing ever could.

Seseorang yang bisa bantuin gue.. in every way imaginable,kadang gue ngerasa, ngeliat dia aja udah bisa ngurangin setengah beban dari masalah apa pun yang lagi gue hadapin saat itu. and once again he keeps me sane from all my madness in life. My partner in crime yang selalu ngajarin gue banyak hal.. hmm.. sebenernya kita punya

Seseorang yang pintar,not in staight- A's kind of way though. you name it...Seseorang yang fun to be around. Lucu dengan kejayusannya, unik dengan segala keanehannya, Sempurna dengan segalakesamaan.. sama-sama KERAS ! tapi anehnya, once again, inseparable at the same time.

seseorang yang gue hargain dan hormatin bgt dalam hidup ini. Seseorang yang sangat objektif memandang segala sesuatu, jadi bisa mengimbangi gue yang selalu memandang secara subjektif dan... hars in my words. Seseorang yang sabar banget, sincere in his every way and basically one of the most kind at heart person that I've ever known.
kekurangannya. Seseorang yang kehadirannya patut disyukurin bgt,karena diperbolehkan kenal dan ngerasain dia dalam hidup gue. cuz' he's just one of a kind. One of kind. Truly...

Seseorang yang kehadirannya berpengaruh bgt buat gue. karena asli' ! ngga kebayang bisa ngelewatin sehari aja tanpa ngeliat dia dan senyumannya. cieeee... tasya ! it just wouldn't feel right. And won't ever feel right..And most of the time , I found strength in just one look of him. My ground..He makes me feel. CONTENT !

Seseorang yang ngga mungkin kelupaan dalam daftar doa gue tiap hari. Cuz most of the day, He's always the number One on the list ! the top of the chart ( kayak billboard aja.. kalaupun harus dibandingin sama itungan chart biilboard, all I can say is that... rekor dia udah ngalahin sang legendaris "the Beatles" deh.. HaHa..

gue seneng bgt gue bisa jadi *temen* buat dia.. gue mau gini terus.. I'm not looking someone I can live with but I'm looking someone I can't live without. *smile seductively*.

dan besok.. our 1st 2 months anniversary... I will always pray that we can loving each other forever.. amiinnnnnnnnnnnnn..........

padahal..

2007-02-23T12:36:00.000+08:00

pertama gw buka FS gw.. ada 3 testi dari dia. gw ngga pernah seseneng ini kalo buka FS.. kalo boleh jujur, gw lagi sayang2nya sama dia.. lagi seneng2nya sama dia.. setiap doa gw selalu minta semoga gw bisa kayak gini terus.. bisa senyum bahagia setiap hari kyk kemaren...

tapi... gw bikin dia marah LAGI, bikin dia benci sama gw.

aku minta maaf yang, aku ngga tau harus gimana lagi. aku sedih bgt sekarang.

ya Allah.. tasya bingung mau ngapain sekarang, tasya males pulang..

padahal di kepala gw udah banyak rencana buat tgl. 27 ini...tapi semuanya kandas lagi.

kenapa ya?

2007-02-23T12:19:00.000+08:00

semoga ngga ada orang yang ngerasain perasaan gw skrg. disaat lo lagi sayang2nya, lagi bahagia2nya sam org yang lo bener2 sayang, tiba2 org yang lo sayang itu bilang " lo ngga berhak dapetin perasaan gw kyk gini, lo bukan wanita yang berhak dapetin persaan ni. lo tukang tipu ."

ya Allah.. rasanya semua darah dibadan gw nyatu di leher gw sampe gw kecekek dan ngga bisa ngomong apa2, cuma bisa nangis sedih . terserah gw dibilang cengeng atau drama queen, cuma gw sama Allah yang tahu.

tapi, gw harus bisa tahan tangis gw.. gw ngga mau nagis.. ngga... gw cuma minta bantuan sama tangan gw buat megangin dada gw supaya lebih tenang.

kenapa ya semua dateng disaat gw lagi bahagia gini, kenapa ya semua dateng disaat keadaan di rumah lagi ngga ngenakin. om gw marah ngga jelas lagi. dalam keadaan gini, dia ngga ada disamping gw. gw pasrah..gw lagi nyari2 tiket airasia yang murah2.. gw cuma punya duit 400, gw ngga mau mnta bunda. si Noni milih ngungsi ke tempat kakaknya di bekasi. sedangkan gw kemana?? ngga ada yang peduli juga gw mau kemana,ngga ada juga yang ngarepin gw di jakarta. 'aku wanita jalang dari kumpulan yang terbuang.' munkin bener gw bukan cewe yang berhak dapetin hatinya, mumgkin dia bener sekarang gw harus terima kenyataan yang sama sekali ngga pernah gw harapin. Ya Allah.. maafin tasya ya..

ini salah gw.. gw bener2 minta maaf.. tadi malem .. emang gw salah. gw ngga bilang smpe jam 10. seinget gw, gw bilang sampe jam 9 atau ngga jam 10an.. hp gw dipegang sama org metro tvnya. gw ngga bisa ngabarin dia. mana mbak2nya rese bgt, gw disuruh jaga di studio,lt/1 , lt.2 dengan kondisi baju sama kepala yang berat bgt. acara selesai jam 10, tapi semua usher disuruh tetep stay di tempat sampe tamu2 udah pada keluar, belum disuruh ini itu.. akhirnya jam setengah 11an lewat selesai balik ke ruang ganti. belum buka baju, buka konde,bersihin make up... mana mobilnya reyna ketiban pohon lagi, katanya ada angin puting beliung. mau pulang jam berapa gw kalo nungguin mobilnya reyna, akhirnya gw ber3 ikut melody, dia ke arah kemayoran, dan kita turun di pasar baru lanjut naek taxi.

tadi malem gw tidur jam3.. padahal seluruh badan gw udah capek bgt, tapi tetep ngga bs tidur. udah gw coba tutup mata, tapi tetep ngga bisa. gw ngeliat Noni tidur enak bgt, kyk ngga ada yang dipikrin..

fiuhhh.. gw lagi ngga mau di rumah, gw bete dirumah.

Joging

2007-02-19T13:03:00.000+08:00

just got back from, joging! ya... Fikri picked me up at 6.00 this morning,last night we decided to have some an exercise like Joging. we did it in Senayan field. I only got 3 circles, not bad.. and Fikri got 4 circles. Fiuhh... i'm so tired now, but I enjoyed it! sama pacar gituuhhh.... and we stopped at 8 am. it's rainy, a bit drizzling.. After that we were looking for breakfast and decided to get porridge in Benhil. then. we went home at 9 am.

maybe today we are not doing watching movie at cinema as usuall we did every Monday. I skip it today. it's OK ! but tomorrow Fikri promised to accompany me buy gymnastics or yoga Dvd for my mom in Ambassador mall. and maybe we continue to watching movie at cinema. I want to watching Rocky Balboa.

oh ya, last Saturday we both watched 'Ghost rider' or something like that. hmm.. it's quiet nice. not bad. the movie was played by Nicholas cage. He's so Cute. Especially I like Johny Blaze when He was young on that film, but I'm forget what he's name. his face looks like Tom cruise. cuter than him lahh.. HeHeHe.. and I loke those motorcycle on that film, I imagine if I had one of them.. huhh.. it'd be very cool.. nanti lah gw minta papa, hehe..

Hmm.. enough deh.. gw mau ngapain dulu nih. ok.ok

long road by busway

2007-02-14T11:04:00.000+08:00

yesterday was so nice for me, fkri and I were together went to mangga dua by busway, this was our first time using a public transportation together, well... u know, how is bus condition in Jakarta??!! and we decided to using busway for our journey this time. we would to try new busway station that located near from my house. we walked together, holding hands, laughing each other. this was so sweet for us. to get Mangga dua, we had to change the bus for twice, first place in Halimun station and the last in Dukuh atas station, it's quite comfortable. but not in the Afternoon, it'll full of people. at 2.00 pm we arrived in Station Kota, and continuing headed to Mangga 2 by 'angkot'. Lucky us, the weather was so friendly, like everybody knows, Kota is So Full of people, full of vehicle, full of polution, and full of dust. Can u imagine if the weather give us a hot and extreme weather, it'll makes our body be bathed in sweat! yucks... it so awful!

before shopping, we had lunch in Padang restaurant, I ate fried chicken and lot of Chili. hmm.. it's so yummy.. Hehe.. then we continued to shopping. I bought many kind of stuff. I bought a nice green sweater, a cute brownish sattin tops, tanktops, shocks, even I bought a towel. I didn't know, why I bought it. I just wanted it. Hahaha.. after that about 5.00 pm we ate AGAIN. Fikri stared at me, then said .. 'what??! u want to eat again? are u serious?' I didn't know why?! I just wanted to eat more table. Alhamdulillah..

fiuh.. i couldn't believe my eyes when I saw the Lines engaged so Looooooonggg.. oh God ! and I thought , it more comfortable when using our vehicle. we don't have to waiting an hours or doing something bored. yah.. but I enjoyed the situation. it's quiet funny and sweet.

oh ya, today is Valentine's day, like i've ever told you, Fikri and I didn't celebrating it. we CAN share and loving to each other Everyday, anytime, and everywhere we want. Everyday is valentine's Day. HeHeHe..

Fikri was a nice a company, he didn't complain about anything. We really enjoyed it. thanks babe.. I love u.. Cupcup..

my damage hair

2007-02-08T13:19:00.000+08:00

Yippiiee.. I am free now. No Job. No Busy. No Idea. well... I love being free. HaHaHa
past two days ago, I bought LEA's skinny jeans. yah.. for jeans I prefer Lee Cooper, LEA, or if i had much money I'll buy Levi's. Skinny?! hmm.. I thought it is so sexy. it can slendersize my body. I bought the faded blue ones. It looks nice on me. Ya I Like it !
Hmm.. I planned to go to Mangga 2 this week ar next week, maybe I'll ask Fikri or my cousin or my friend to accompany me. I'm searcing for cute and nice flat shoes and one highheels i think, and I wanna buy MORE cute and simple look tops, and i wanna buy a 'perfect hand bag', what else?! ya.. let's see..
Yesterday was my 'bersih-bersih' day, I went to Nina Ricci Saloon with Noni, we both do Scrubing, Facial, and I cutted my hair. Almost three months I never do 'bebersih diri' , and yesteday I had a free time. Oh ya.. I have a problem with my hair now, my hair falls a lot, oh God, I need a treatment or something like that, maybe tomorrow I'll started from using 'Liday Buaya' , hairtonic everyday, and do creambath twice a week. anybody knows how to make my hair back to normal instantly? please help me.. send ur advice/tips/or else to my e-mail : adji.anastasya@gmail.com. Ok. Thanks. I'm waiting guys..
Oh no, I almost forgot to pay my phone bills now. I gotta go.. Have a nice day.

flooded Jakarta

2007-02-06T16:02:00.000+08:00

well, i'm on holiday now. After three events i've done a few days ago. started from Bulungan Cup, Grand opening Pollo Campero Restaurant, and the last Cosmogirl Fashion week ( remembering me when i was 14 years old, i walked as a model catwalk, hehe... it was a great time). and yes! Bunda Iim phoned me two days ago and informed me that mike is back to jakarta. who's Mike? he's an Australian.. Last August I've joined with his team on Cosmobeauty Exhibiton,and i helped him to promoting the Ultrawave wellness system, it's kinda a sets of equipment for massage. with water pressure inside the mattress. it can burn fat, reduce stress, accelerate our metabolism, combate cellulite, and more. it moving a whole body. ok ok.. stop promotion! hahaha. And Mike asked me to join his Exhibition this weekend in Bursa Efek Jakarta ( BEJ). with the same product. and InsyaAllah on 24th Feb we're going to Singapore for the next Exhibition. ya i Hope !

Last night i had a chest cold, and i asked wa' Ida to 'kerokin' my back. and when i saw my back on the mirror. oh God ! it so red and dark.. it's probably caused by my activities recently. i was so busy with my job this month. i need a rest. i'll take a vacation ..

oh ya.. Have u heard about flooded in Jakarta ? it's so sad for those people who their houses being soaked by water. I watched a news on TV, almost entire Jakarta is flooded.started from Kelapa gading, Tg. priuk, Stasiun Dukuh atas, Benhil, Arteri, Kp. melayu, Kuningan , even the protocol street Sudirman. what kind of pathetic situation today? all i can do is to pray to Allah, i hope this disaster will be over soon. Very soon.

Everyday my mom phoned me.. she always tells me to take good care myself, my healthy. she's so afraid with condition of Jakarta now. if there's no important things , better i just stay at home and don't go anywhere. Fikri also tells me about it.ya i will! i won't be a rebellion..!

hmm.. Valentine's day??!! i think i am not celebrating it. i always spread love everyday, for my family, my boyfriend,my friends, even my new friends. Valentine's day is just a symbol of a Love day, when all people sharing their warm feeling, a love feeling, to their loved ones or their bestfriends. give a chocolate or roses to their loved . But i CAN share my warm feeling,love feeling, EVERYDAY ! EVERYWHERE! and ANYTIME ! i love being myself. for some people who celebrating it . i would say Happy Valentine's day.Love is all we need !

Grand Opening !

2007-02-01T17:10:00.000+08:00

after finishing my duty on grand opening pollo campero restaurant in sarinah thamrin. fiuhh.. so tired but it was so fun. this restaurant is the first outlet in Asia, they're from Latino. Amerika latin! it's like a chicken restaurant, they sell a traditional meal from latin. i liked the owner, she's so 'sterek', and i liked her skin ( browny skin like a golden shimerring). i Want ! the party started at 10.30 and it's rainy outside. the majority guest were Latino. i talked with one latinos, he told me evrything about america latin, the weather, the friendly people, and else. he was so nice, he's a hubby with a 5-months son. his wife doesn't go with him. because it will be a long journey. after in Indonesia. they'll open in China,Japan,Thailand, and other Asia.

Udjo and Yossy Project pop were participated here. they both ver very low profile. not like the other celebrities which is so arrogant. and of course the 'next inul' Tina toon, the kindergarden childrens very enjoyed with her. she made everybody laughed. it was so fun time.

and yes. i wanna go home now. take a rest and continuing my duty tomorrow at 10.00 am. oh God ! i need a rest.

oh ya. fikri has told me, his handphone was lost when he wanted to go to Campus. ya Allah.. i've told him be carefull on a bus, there's a lot of snatcher. Once, to all please, be carefull when you use a public transportation. especially on a bus! and don't forget to pray and asked Allah to always protecting us.

ya ya.. i'm waiting for the result of the examination. pray to Allah !

the past and the future

2007-01-28T17:44:00.000+08:00

the examination nearly over. oh .. i forgot one exam to go on monday.I should preparing it well. and praise to god.. i could passed the last exam as well. alhamdulillah..and i'm expecting i got 4.oo of my IP this semester.

I got many job this month, alhamdulillah. after being so busy in bulungan cup last week , mba lisa gave me another job as a stand guide next week. it was so fun being stand guide. i got many an experience,they're taught me how to operating any kinf of machine? what's the ingredients product for?how to be succesful women in future? how does the EO works? and else. and exactly i could earned money by myself. ho ho.. proud my self, not for being arrogant or something. i can buy something i want n of course without not to be whimper asking for money to my parents or expecting my dad add me some money in account.atleast alleviating my parents's load lah.. and o ya, yesterday i was thinking to buy laptop that i saw in glodok mangga 2 when fikri and I went there to bought TV last month. i want buy it with my 'own money' . i'm still collecting it. I love the silver ones.

Looking forward almost 3 weeks holiday. I haven't make any plan to do yet. Any idea to go or to do,guys? Besides sleeping,eating,watching dvd all day,and other lazziness thingy. hmm.. i thought i need some vacation for tranquility. i would like to go somewhere cozy,comfort,nature, and nice. and i would do something different such a kind of sports that need of high bravery like hiking to mahameru mountain, parasailing, bungee jumping, or arung jeram. ya.. i'm thinking to try them!

Yesterday happened to be our 1st and 1 months Anniversarry, but something happened repeatly, but i can not tell u, guys! i'm sorry. it's too private and confidential . hahaha. kidding.. all i can do is pray for Allah. i hope we're protected by Allah, live happily, full of happiness, loving each other forever. amin.
Love is blind. we could do something stupid, ridiculous,nonsense because of LOVE. Love can makes us flying high , smilimg all day long,felt like world is in our hands, felt like we're in heaven,LOVE bring the joy and happiness. But sometimes a terrible things happened because of LOVE. Jeolusy, pain, heartbroken, and else even LOVE can makes us falls down,crying cats and dogs. felt like this is the end of our life. but, hey... life must go on, guys! there'e another chance to get better,to mend the pain. we have to wake up from sadness and expecting tomorrow would be better than ever. no more pain, crying, fighting, and other terrible things. but there'll be happiness, loving,carrying, smiling, hugs and kissing, and other greatfull things.and I know I can do it! as a human all we can to do is only pray for the God and endeavour to get a better life. past is past. come to looking in the future. we will never know what God has planned for us. may Allah still protecting me. amin

baikan lagi

2007-01-17T15:30:00.000+08:00

gw lagi di pasar festival ni.. tadi mau beli majalah yanng biasanya tapi ngga ada, trus om ade nitip baked potato,tadinya si shifa mau ikut tapi diluar panas banget jadinya ngga jadi deh, dan akhirnya gw mau cek2 email dulu.

ya ya.. lagi lagi.. each time i check my email ,fs or fikri's fs.. i'm feeling so bad.. n today when i check fikri's in found his ex named julia has added him, oh my god.. i'm so insecure.. next week he will come back to bukit tinggi for almost a months,i'm afraid that he'll meet her. and what kind of feeling inside me this time.. i won't to be too jealous with him anymore. but honestly, i was so scared.. many thinks inside my mind.. why everything that makes me jealous come back to me? just stop it already, i was so tired. satu masalah udah selesai dan i wish there's no another problem between us, i just wanted that we both could live happily and peacefull. i believe in him.. but i do afraid that he'll gonna makes me feel down. please calm down tasya,, all i can do is only pray for Allah,i hope everything would be better and fine, amien..

oyah.. i want to tell u about my fighting with fikri last time, ya..finally kita baikan lagi, i was so happy, something happened on last saturday night, i really really sorry, i don't meant to do that.. and i can't believe why did i do that,, i lost him for a days, he won't calls me, he rebuked me when i call him, i was so sad, i can't believe that he could so rude to me that time, i just can't imagine that. but i deserve what i have done to him, and i do apologise for all my fault. and now we start of something new relationship, something that makes us comfort and needed each other. we won't separate, we'll do the best. i won't any reason ruin our happiness, yah i though everything gonna be fine . i hope.

i'll never stop to saying that i love him so much.. i am so greatfull to him..

and i'll preparing my exam next week,pray for me guys..

we're in..

2007-01-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

ya.. we're in fighting now, for misunderstanding reason,, honestly, i'm tired with this situation, but sometime i was thinking it makes me grow up wisely, we can change bad habit on us. i hope it just like another fighting like usually, fighting at first, warm embrace after that. the sweetest moment when we're after arguing eah other. then problem solved! ya.. i hope.

tomorrow i have to wake up early because i got work in bulungan cup. would be my last day to work. and tommorow the event would be closed. and i'm happy that maliq and d'essentials participating to fill the show. i'm happy happy..and i could watching the show for free. yippiiee..

back to my sadness time,
i'm so sad have a fighting with him, i always pray that we're on happiness all the time, but i have to accept that nobodys perfect, pasti ada ngga cocoknya. ketidakcocokan yang bikin kita saling mengisi satu sama lainnya. ya ya.. ambil hikmahnya saja. yang jelas i always love him ..

he always fill my emptiness,my sadness time, but now i don't know where he is. i called his handphone but he didn't hang up the phone, i called his home and i talked with uda dendy, he tells me that fikri not in home, and probably he eats or something. ya.. i'm waiting for his call now..

hmm.. mau pulang tapi masih macet banget.. and i forgot to buy something for grandma, i want to buy cheese bread for her. i wanna go home soon.. but the traffic jam makes me had headache.. shit!

hmm.. i only ate bubur today, i don't know why i won't to eat..i just wanna drink much.. tapi sempet ngiler juga sih pas liat anak2 pada makan soto babat, hmm.. yummy..! tapi lagi ngga pengen makan banyak aja. i'm on diet ! hahaha...

hmm.. i was thinking about my exams next week.. i have to study hard. ya ya.. i know. i will. pray for me, guys ...

i just wanna say.. i love him so much.. i hope the fighting would be over soon. aminnn..

bete !

2007-01-12T19:28:00.000+08:00

tau ngga gw udah nulis2 panjang mau update blog tiba2 tulisan gw terhapu semua... grrrr.. bete bete!

i'm not in mood to writing for twice.. grrrrr.. !

still here waiting

2007-01-10T17:22:00.000+08:00

almost 2 hours here.. i'm trying to booking tickets to bali next august, yah.. air asia promo, o Rp. 189.ooo return,only pay the tax..mba ika told us via sms last night.. but repeatly the website errors. fiuh.. namanya juga tiket murah pasti banyak bgt yang lagi browsing.. yah rejeki ngga kemana.. ya kan??!! rencananya i'll going with noni,fara,fikri,afghan,krita.. having fun together di BALI gitu lho.. uhh.. it'll be cool. so romantic.. can't imagine.. i hope we got the tickets. amien..

this is last day i studying Hukum tata negara,next week i'll preparing my exams.. wish me luck, guys! semoga aja IP gw tambah tinggi.. yah.. 4.00 bisa lah.. i was happy when my result last semester. first semester i got 3.79 then in second semester i got 3.89.. pray for me, huh. i'll do my best !

talking about new year .. i have no special resolutions this year, i only pray that i should do my best from now. i'll take care of my family,friends,bestfriends,my environment and my loved ones.i always pray we will love each other forever. i want everything would be better than ever.

many problem i had last year .. started from the 'girl' that trying to ruin my happiness and the girl happened to be my boyfriend's 'new cousin' .. u can imagine my feelings.. it so pathetic for me knowing she's became an intruder.
at first. i saw her picture with bf as a primary photo in friendster. (what the fuck u do that for). then.

me : 'who is she?'

my bf : 'she is my cousin from malaysia.'

me : 'ooh.. i c.. but i never hearing about her before. and why u put ur picture and her as a primaryphoto in ur profile?'

my bf : ok, i'll change it. she send me the picture and she wants me to put it as a primary photo.

me : she's so flirtatous.. 'ok, just removed it,ok.'

a few moths i kept quiet. i thought there's something wrong on her. she's been in love with him more than who she is. then.oneday i dig her blog up.. n u know.. i seen her picture and her fucking 'poem' that dedicated to my boyfriend. what the fuck? then. i send her a message and show her about my feelings after seen her poem. then. u know what did she said. 'ohh.. it wasn't dedicated for fik'. fuck u! why didn't u admit that? i ask her repeatly but with the same answer. she did not to admit what she has done to me. i revolted with her like pretend innocent. who do you think u are? i really really disgusted with u. sok hebat!

but fikri realizing me.. and he said ' honey, . she's nothing. she's never on my mind. i never even like her. there's no advantages fighting with "orang gila". she's really really nothing. i've told u the truth. dia pernah kirim message ke aku dan she asked me to read her 'poem' in her blog after she come back to malaysia. she's flrting too much.. but i never like her. aku tau sekarang dia itu munafik. ngga mau ngaku pernah suka sama aku, bukannya aku yang kegeeran atau gimana, tapi dia emang pernah bilang suka sama aku. yeah, mungkin dia ngga bisa nerima kekalahan aja. yang jelas.i NEVER falling in love with her.

then i realised she's two face. two personality. had a different confession in her blog and reality.

and i guess there's lot of better things i have to do than thinking of girl that ruin my happines.

please..please .. leave me alone !

2007-01-03T13:22:00.000+08:00

I'm thinking now.
How do I throw away my hatred, my revengeful heart of HER?
How do I forget someone who really annoyed me and ruin my happiness? How do I pretend to be someone who never knows her?
pretend there's nothing happened in my life.

Is stuggling my love life from everything annoys me considering as a crime?
Is admonish someone who flirting too much with my bf considering as a mistake?
Is asking someone to admit for something she really did toward me as a sin?
Is that fair if she scold me as if she's the one who's 'right'?

Why did she always said that her flirting is only a flirting?
Why did She don't want to admit her 'bithchy soul that she had'?
Why did She put my bf's pic on her 'poem' if she really never have special feelings to him?
Why did She took my bf's candidly?
Why did She pretend all she has done wasn't important to me?
Why did she never thinks if she's being me?on my position that time?
found out everything that really annoyed me. Knowing theres a girl who approaching, flirting TOO MUCH with my bf. and the girl happened to be my bf's 'new cousin'.. it so AWFUL !!!!!

DON'T BLAME ME if I really hate u.
( it because of u )
DON'T BLAME ME why I kept on accuse u ruin my relationship.
( it because I got MANY of evidence)
DON'T BLAME ME if I won't ever admit u as my bf's cousin. whatever it is.
( coz cousin don't do that)
DON'T BLAME ME why I asked u to stay away from US?
( because WE want to live happily)

just go away. don't ever come back.
just leave us. don't ever come back.
just let us get our happiness. without YOU.
just let us loving each other. without YOU.

I Hope. YOU. ARE.DISSAPEAR.SOON.

story of a girl

it's worth seeing!

Stop right now!

Abang Ijal's wedding

Besok??!

Hip Hip Hurraa

Very random.. ; )

Happy Lebaran!

judging or just making a comment?

I.Have.No.Inspiration

Despra Levin One..

Sahur..sahur...!

I'm the one who should laughing! hehe

Think Big ! It's all possible...

Happy Fasting

I'm gonna take it away

untitle

Bali I'm in love..

C'mon Malay..

TKW dan penganiayaan di Malaysia

Merdeka...!

si Mawar dan cinta pertama-nya

eh Quizzes lagi... Hehehe

Quizzes Again??? : P

Quizzes ..Quizzes..

Hati- Hati lhoooo !!

Fikri said : " Ayang, u r the most beautiful girl" uhuk..uhuk... *cought* :D

my bestfriends

NO SMOKING

welcome to Borneo. I'm here...

kangen ayang

Foto II

unmood

Puncak

Bandung.....

past few days...

I'm turning twenty today !

My teen years

Nagabonar jadi 2 ~~

discohello agogo

Nonton,nonton,dan nonton

mixa feelings

malam minggu

my menstruation

Mimpi

Bandung

spent my whole day together

double date

catch it !!

Seseorang. . .

padahal..

kenapa ya?

Joging

long road by busway

my damage hair

flooded Jakarta

Grand Opening !

the past and the future

baikan lagi

we're in..

bete !

still here waiting

please..please .. leave me alone !

Fikri said : " Ayang, u r the most beautiful girl" uhuk..uhuk... cought :D